Point to Point

One year since my last post eh? Well, what do I have to show for myself since? I'll try to bulletize it first. Since April I have:

- "Broken up" with my former giant loser of a boy... whatever he was. He was one persistent son of a bitch, and just couldn't stop getting in touch and "staying friends" with me. Well, after a few runs of "Kelangan ko ng space" dramas, we're finally no longer in contact at all, which is of my own doing (wrote him an email, almost begging him to burn whatever bridge is still left between us). Well, I guess that really was the last wish and only thing that he could do for me after everything that happened in between.
- In the midst of that loveshit flurry, I did what I always do when I'm about to breakdown. I hibernate while looking for some drastic form of escape, not the destructive kind. In this case, I tried to look for a job in another company. Back then I thought that by doing this, I can just leave everything behind then start fresh as when I just got out of college. What came out of my jobhunt? Later...
- Still in the middle, someone else came along. This one is really hard to crack. He was the total opposite of my "ex". He's a quiet, reserved, simple, good-natured guy, too nice actually. You won't find a trace of malice in him (well, at first I guess). But since I was so intrigued by his odd square mystery, I exerted effort in getting to know him better. I figured, nobody can be that nice? He must still be human and must have some annoying quirks somehow. Curiouser and curiouser... Then guess what? I fell so in like with him, oh stupid me! How tragic. He was indeed nice, and also funny, smart and did I mention that he was also tall, dark, not so bad-looking, and quite athletic as well? Exactly my type, I'm dumbfounded. But as I said, he didn't have an ounce of flirt in his body. Every cute thing that he does, I can easily dismiss as "being nice". So in essence we remain, what you call that wretched term for platonic relationships? Aaaahhh, friends. Amen to that. No regrets though, it always make me smile when I think of him (fine, maybe 10 grams of disappointment also weighs in).
- Ah yes, so I've tackled my so called lovelife in the best brief way I can. Let's move on with the rest of the year. Hmmm... This did not have that strenuous impact on me but I have to let it out. It's just that I saw so much of my relatives!!! It was not normal anymore! There was a period when Saturdays and Sundays were spent with them for weeks on end. Oh my God, what a frenzy. It's actually a good thing, helped me forget about my heartache and my stress at work. But eventually it became too much, at least for me, a person who loves my quiet solitary time. It later died down though, after the last family wedding I think around January. The pace is now normal. Settled.
- And of course, the biggest change during the year! As I said, I applied in other companies. I quickly had some offers. But the one company that I was really anxious for a feedback took some time to get in touch with me. Yes, they did get in touch after a few months. This was the first time that I really demanded and negotiated for a fat paycheck. I signed on the day that I was offered. But apparently, I was told that I still had a relatively bad deal, they said I could've gotten heftier perks if I only asked for it, ::twak:: me. But well, everything was done. I contemplated on backing out since it seems that I was being shortchanged. Thank goodness, I did not do that, else I would've gotten the most pitiful career state among everyone. So yes, I finally moved to a new company.

(Losing the bullets...)

So this is my current state. My pay is good, and work is easy, a bit too easy to tell the truth. I have now the time and resources for other things in life. I've gotten a few money-munching hobbies. I'm saving up for a car (about two months more and I'm set), am able to buy my "necessities", and still able to provide for my family. Looks like I'm a very lucky overpaid biatch, so sue me.

Now, I am almost everything that my parents wants me to be, a successful and beautiful(bite me) cosmopolitan young woman (thank you Ara Mina, Aubrey Miles and Angel Locsin). Earning more than what I essentially need at this stage in life. I should be satisfied right? Yes I should. But unfortunately, I'm not. Before I entered into the work force, I knew exactly what industry I wouldn't want to venture. So, here I am in the heart of that field, in a company that boasts of that very industry. I'm here now because I needed a good job back then, you know, those twist of fate thingies. We were not doing very well financially and I still had a brother who was still in college. That was the obvious solution to our woes. I gave in, thinking that maybe I'll learn to love the work, sitting in front of the computer most of the day, working 9 hours, 5 days a week in the office. Well, honestly I did learn to appreciate it despite my heart's initial resistance. At some point, I think I even liked it, seriously. It improved the logic that was already built in my brain. But still, there's this feeling, constantly at the back of my heart and my head. Nudging me now and again, and lately really smacking me that this just isn't it. I can't fathom the thought of doing this job for a very long time. It's good, it helps in making people's lives better, but it's also not for me. I've always known that I don't want an 8-5 office work. And in this industry that I'm in, the products are all very intangible, a huge contrast to the course that I took up in school. I really wanted to be on the field, going out and about, feeling the sun on my skin and the sweat on my forehead (though maybe not all the time). Point is, I wanted a more physical work and products that I can see without looking at a computer monitor. Or service that doesn't require logging in to some system then racking my brain while navigating codes. I'm not really sure what I want but I'll start with my roots and then go from there. Anyway, the thought of wearing protective gear really excites me, so that's a good sign right?

I am aware that it's totally ridiculous to let go of my jackpot-ish job right now. So I won't. But I will take advantage of the "perks" that I'm getting from it. I don't do shifting and has no weekend work (at least for now). My office is in Quezon City, almost along Katipunan. And most importantly, I have a healthy paycheck. I plan to keep these blessings for as long as I can. So how will I utilize these? I plan to go back to school and take up masteral studies. It would be a very difficult feat which would require a some level of preparation, especially now that it's been almost two years since board exams and the nature of my work is far from related to my course. I also know that somewhere along my supposed studies, I'll have to give up work and totally shift careers. Thus, financial prep is also required since I know that starting salaries for my next job won't be as high as my current one.

This is not an overnight decision, I've thought about this for months now and gathered as much reality check as my heart can take. I also admit that I'm still in the process of psyching myself for my impending lifestyle change. But to tell you the truth, the thought of the challenge inspires me. Or maybe it's my masochistic persona in the works. But this is the only way that I can think of to smoothly ease in to the career transition that I plan to execute.

Nonetheless, I'm very satisfied with my plans. And if I do get to pull through all of this, I'll give myself a huge slap on the back! Also, like my bestfriend said, I might even be more receptive to the that thing called romance once I clear my life plans. I do want to settle down as well once I've gotten myself all figured out. Well, so far these are all still in the works, whatever moral support you'll offer me, I'll accept. Let's see, let's see.

Wish me luck please! *crossing fingers* :)

Uh oh...

I miss my heartbeat...










...for you.

Umuusok na Maundy Thursday

KABOOM!!! Nasa kwarto ako nun sa condo. Nagising ako dun sa pagsabog. Tapos... tapos... natulog ako. Uieeeoooeuieeeooo!!! Nagising na naman ako kasi ang ingay ng mga sirena. Maya-maya... natulog ulet ako. Pero dahil ako ay ako, hindi rin ako talagang nakatulog nang tuluyan, paikut-ikot lang sa kama. Hanggang sa tinawag ako ni Ludivine, "Maita...". Nun, medyo nagkaroon na ako ng ulirat at sumagot ako, "ano yun? ano nangyayari?", may konting pagpapanggap kasi inaantok pa ako. Sumilip kami sa bintana at aba, hindi na biro, nagtatakbuhan na ang maraming mga tao sa kalsada, may dala-dalang appliances at kung anu-anong gamit. At kasama nila, may mga limang trak ng bumbero na nakaparada sa kanto ng Vito Cruz at Pasong Tamo (este, Chino Roces pala, sori naman). Syempre pagkakita ko nun, tayo na ako agad, sabi ko nuod kami TV sa sala para makita kung ano yung nasusunog. But no! Today is a Maundy Thursday, therefore, walang palabas sa local TV!!!

Lumabas na din si Vida, Joan, at nagising na si, si, si Queenie (medyo nahirapan ako alalahanin pangalan niya a). Tapos ayun, konting balitaktakan na may kasamang excitement, takot ang kung anu-ano pa, mga 5 mins yun. Naisip na din namin bumaba at tingnan kung saan nagaganap yung sunog. Yan na, sakay ng elevator papuntang PL. Paglabas ng elevator, WHOA, Pot@n*nech! Parang may isang pader ng sumasayaw na apoy sa ibabaw ng pader ng likod ng Kingswood, mind you, hindi lang ito usok kundi apoy!!! Josko, nasusunog pala yung squatter's area sa likod ng condo! Yun yung tipong akala ko hanggang sa special effects lang sa TV ko mapapanood. Na-amaze talaga kami lahat grabe at pinanood namin yung umaatikabong palabas na yun sandali.

Lumabas kami para tingnan kung san yun sakto, kasi yung iba nga sa amin gaya ko, ni hindi man alam na may squatter's dun. Iba-iba reaksyon namin:

Joan: sobrang excited, kulang na lang samahan niya yung mga bumbero sa loob ng sunog
Weenie/Queenie, watever: Mega panic, gusto na mag-alsabalutan at umuwi sa Pampanga
Ludivine: As usual, hindi ko ma-gets, parang nag-aalala, na hindi naman talaga, na natatakot, na hindi rin naman, ewan! May ka-text siya
Ako: Mejo not enough vitamins, sunod lang ako ng sunod sa kanila kasi ayoko lang mahuli sa balita. Minsan magsasabi ako ng kung anu-ano para "in" ako sa usapan. Pero sa totoo lang, gusto ko na umakyat at matulog. Naisip ko din, buti na lang walang news kundi tapos ang maliligayang araw ko sa condo.
Vida: Feeling ko parang ako din.

Pero yun, dahil nakashort shorts ako, at sila naman ay nakapantulog lang din, bumalik na kami sa condo. Tumambay sa PL, kahit na hindi ko magets kung baket namin ginagawa yun, samantalang wala naman nang ibang mangyayari. Nauusukan lang kami kasi napupulaan na rin yung apoy. Pero sabi ko nga, ayoko mahuli sa balita kaya nakisabit na lang. Umakyat na din kami. Dumiretso na ako sa kwarto, sinara ang bintana kasi mausok, naisip kong kawawa naman yung mga nawalan ng bahay ngayong Holy Week (sincere to) at natulog.

Moral Lessons:
- Ang maraming foreigner sa Kingswood ay naglalabasan pag may mga ganitong komosyon, kaya dagdag attaction na din. Pwede pwede.
- Wala akong kwenta, pag nagkaroon ng airstrike, patay ako.

Don't Waste Your Time

It’s over, it’s over, it’s over…

It seems you can’t hear me
When I open my mouth you never listen
You say stay, but what does that mean
Do you think I honestly want to be reminded forever

Don’t waste your time trying to fix
What I want to erase
What I need to forget
Don’t waste your time on me my friend
Friend, what does that even mean
I don’t want your hand
You’ll only pull me down
So save your breath
Don’t waste your song
On me, on me
Don’t waste your time

It’s not easy not answering
Every time I want to talk to you
But I can’t
If you only knew the hell I put myself through
Replaying memories in my head of you and I
Every night

Don’t waste your time trying to fix
What I want to erase
What I need to forget
Don’t waste your time on me my friend
Friend, what does that even mean
I don’t want your hand
You’ll only pull me down
So save your breath
Don’t waste your song
On me, on me
Don’t waste your time

You’re callin’
You’re talkin’
You’re tryin’
Tryin’ to get in
But it’s over, it’s over, it’s over
Friend

Don’t waste your time trying to fix it
So save your breath, don’t waste your song
On me, on me
Don’t waste your time

You held me
You felt me
You left me
But it’s over, it’s over, it’s over
You touched me
You had me
But it’s over, it’s over, it’s over my friend
Don’t waste my time

--Kelly Clarkson

Are you amnesia?

Napansin ko na naging sobrang makakalimutin ko na nitong mga nakaraang linggo. Sa sobrang makakalimutin ko ay:

- Pag bumubunot ako ng panyo ko sa bulsa ng jacket ko na iniiwan ko sa opisina, mapapagalaman ko na may apat na panyo na ang nandun
- Nung isang beses, sumakay na ako sa tricycle at nasa may bungad na kami nang mapagtanto ko na naiwan ko pala wallet ko sa bahay, pinabalik ko pa ulet yung trike sa bahay
- Lagi na lang bukas ang trolley ko pagdating ko sa office, nakakalimutan ko kasi ikandado
- Pagpasok ko isang araw, natakot ako kasi wala sa trolley ko yung PC ko, at nung hinanap ko, nakakalat lang siya dun sa lapag sa isang sulok ng area namen sa opisina, putek
- May gamot kasi akong gamit ngayon at kaninang umaga, sa sobrang makakalimutin ko, tatlong beses ko siyang ininom kasi nakakalimutan kong nainom ko na pala siya, dapat isa lang
- Lagi na lang ako tumatawag sa office para sabihin na pakihanap at pakitabi yung charger o headset ko kasi naiwan ko na naman

Malamang may mga iba pa e, hindi ko lang maalala.

Masyado nang madalas ito, e hindi naman ako ganito dati. Bakit kaya?

Sinungaling

Aktres ka hija! Aktres!

QTT with friends

Friday:

Kasama ko si Allan, Ane, Erma, Shally, Pame at Waquer. Dinner sa Cubao, o diba sosyal? Pero hindi, sobrang ayos yung kinainan namin, sa Butter Diner sa building ng Shopwise, sulit at masarap kahit medyo may kamahalan. :D Tapos nag Timezone hanggang mga 11:30, saya, kakaadik!

Sunday:

Pagkatapos ng trabaho, dumiretso ako kina Angel tapos nagdaldalan lang hanggang sa magsawa. Tulog nang sobrang tagal.

Monday:

Sinamahan ko si Mama sa clinic sa Galleria, tapos shopping then ate dinner. Kumain ulit, naglibut-libot at nag-kape kasama naman si Louie. Tapos kwentuhan hanggang sa magsara na yung mga tindahan sa paligid.

Ang saya, sobrang quality time talaga with friends. Sa uulitin! :D

12 RANDOM MESSAGES TO 12 RANDOM PEOPLE

12 RANDOM MESSAGES TO 12 RANDOM PEOPLE

1) Salamat at napasaya mo naman ako kahit sandali, eventhough you are more of a disappointment rather than an inspiration right now.

2) Salamat at lagi mo sinasalo ang mga naiiwan ko at hindi ka nagrereklamo.

3) Pasensya na kung hindi lang talaga ako yung ganung tipo ng tao, sana maintindihan mo.

4) You are really one of the more special people to me, more than you know.

5) Miss na miss na kita, sana pag nag-meet tayo ulet ganun pa rin, aapihin mo ko at ako naman mahu-hurt. Pero for that I'll love you even more. It's been so long. Too long.

6) Ang galing galing, feel na feel ko ang fulfilment mo in life. Sana ako rin maging ganun someday.

7) I'm so proud of you. Nakaka-inspire talaga.

8) You're beauty inside and out is really refreshing. No pretentions whatsoever. Ikaw ang isa sa mga paborito kong tao.

9) Sorry if sometimes I'm overly spontaneous. I'll try slowing down a bit.

10) I'll try my best to become less of a bitch to you and be more of a real person, hindi naman talaga ako ganun kasama.

11) You start to annoy me, I need to keep my distance.

12) Ano na kaya nangyari sa iyo?

Excerpt

OO, buhay ako.

Full blown na ang work load ng team namin. Warafrigginsheeeet. Ang hirap, nakakapagod, halos wala nang panahon para sa break, demanding ang mga tangang mga taong pinagsisilbihan namin. Sana gawan ito ng paraan ni bossing. Kagabi lang napa-OT ako ng mga 1 1/2 oras kasi kahit na pwede na namin ipasa sa kasunod naming mga tao ang trabaho, ang hirap kapag ikaw na nagsimula kasi alam na alam mo na kung ano ang nangyayari. At tatlo pa kami sa lagay na yun a, e darating pa naman ang panahong dalawa na lang. Wala nang pansinan yun. Buti na lang mahaba ang off ko, halos apat na araw, makakapagpahinga naman. Hay, sana dumating na yung mga dagdag na mga tao. Baka maubusan na ako ng lakas. Pero matagal na matagal pa yun kasi matagal ang training at kung anu-ano pa.

Pero sa kabila ng mga reklamo kong ito, masaya naman ako. Ang saya ng may trabaho na, hindi ka na nga humihingi ng baon, nakakatulong ka pa sa bahay. Mas may laya din na maglamyerda kasi mas may laya na din ang pitaka. Ang dami ko din natututunan, parang hindi kami nauubusan ng mga bagong kaalaman.

Masaya din kasama ang mga katrabaho ko, nagkakasundo talaga kami mula trabaho hanggang sa kalokohan. Puro masisipag din lahat kaya hindi naman gaano nagkakaproblema sa ganong aspeto ng trabaho. Pag nagalalakwatsa kami wala na kaming ginawa kung magtawanan at maggaguhan. Umpisa pa lang naman enjoy na talaga ako kasi puro sila kalog. Aylabdemol.

Kapag medyo hindi na ako naninibago sa trabaho, maghahanap pa ako ng ibang magpagkakaabalahan ng panahon maliban sa opisina. Pero sa ngayon pagbubutihan ko muna ang ginagawa ko.

Buhay buhay.

ABC Meme

ABC Meme

A - Available: yup
A - AOL instant messenger: wala
A - Annoyance: plastik na tao. malandi. subject-verb agreement & other grammatical errors. <--ako din! saka pag yung me kelangan ako tapos hindi ko mahanap samantalang kakakita ko lang a few minutes ago,nakakahayblad

B - Best Friend: marami! Mangoes, mga dyosa
B - Bar: bareta, hehe, ewan
B - Birthday: 05.22.84

C - Crush: Josh Hartnett forever
C - Car: la
C - Cat(s): meron kaso stray lang sila at hindi na namin pinangalanan

D - Dead Pets: pebbles, and maraming maraming fishies
D - Dad's Name: Fidel
D - Dog(s): Whitey (orig na orig diba?)

E - Easiest Person To Talk To: Mangoes, mga dyosa
E - Eggs: sunny-side up ang gusto ko
E - Email: dimple_14@yahoo.com

F - Favorite Color: white, black, green
F - Food: pizza, chocolates, lengua
F - Foreign language: english lang. hehe

G - Gummy Bears or Worms?: neither
G - God: syempre
G - Good Times: basta with friends and family! <---ako din

H - Hair Color: black na may white, hehe
H - Hot?: of course! wahaha!
H - Happy: so so, more of at a loss

I - Ice Cream: chocolate!
I - Interests: TV, music, travel, gimik
I - Idols: yung isa kong high school friend, sobrang salimuot ng buhay niya, kung ako yun, iyak na lang ako sa sulok, pero astig talaga siya!

J - Jewelry: not so into it lately
J - Job: umemployed, goshness!
J - Joke: wala akong maisep ngayon, hehe, KJ

K - Kids: 3-5
K - Karate: hindi e
K - Kung-fu: 3 among my 5 PE's (nag-drop ako ng isa e, bwisit kasi yung teacher) are self-defense courses but I'm not sure if there's any kung-fu or karate in them

L - Longest Car Ride: To Dawal, somewhere sa dulo ng Zambales, more than ten hours of travel
L - Love: is painful
L - Lie?: minsan

M - Milk Flavor: chocolate
M - Mother's Name: Lilia
M - Movie Last Watched: Red Eye

N - Number of Siblings: 2
N - Northern or Southern: n/a
N - Name: Maits

O - One Wish: love, happiness and contentment, ang kulet, one nga e noh?
O - One Phobia: death of loved ones plus ipis and spiders
O - One Pop: pop cola, ano to?

P - Parents: Love ko sila syempre
P - Part of your appearance you like best: boobs, joke! eyes ko pati eyebrows when they're neat
P - Part of your personality you like best: assertive saka I don't really care much about what other people think of me basta gawin ko ang gusto ko basta sa tingin wala namang masyadong mali

Q - Quote: simple lang ang buhay, wag na nating pahirapan pa
Q - Question for the next person: Ano ba talaga ang panakamagandang trabaho sa mundo?
Q - Quick or Slow: depende sa mood

R - Reason to smile: I have a house and family to go home to everyday
R - Reality TV Show: ANTM
R - Right or Left: righty

S - Song Last Heard: Sparks pero yung kaptid ko yung kumakanta
S - Season: SUMMER!!!
S - Sex: female

T - Time you woke up: 7:20 am
T - Time Now: 8:35
T - Time for bed: 11pm-1am

U - Unknown fact about me: may inertia problem ako, pag nagstay ako sa bahay and I start to get comfortable, sobrang tatamarin na akong lumabas unless some great force pushes me to go out, and also the other way around, pag madalas na akong nasa labas gusto ko lagi na akong nasa labas maliban na lang kung may major thing that will make me stay at home
U - Unicorns: For the longest time, I believed that they were not fictional beings
U - U are: gorgeous! walang kokontra!

V - Vegetable you hate: carrots, kalabasa
V - Vegetable you love: green leafy vegetables, okra
V - View on Politics: nakakasawa na sila

W- Worst Habits: yung inertia thing ko pa rin, saka I can be really uptight when I'm at home
W- Where are you going to travel next: Gusto ko pumuntang Bohol or mamasyal ulit sa Baguio!
W- Whales: malaki naman sila

X - X-Rays: nakaka-harass magpa X-ray pag lalaki yung x-ray person
X - X-Rated Porn: kadiri
X - X-tra special someone: secret...
joke, nagpapa-cute lang

Y - Year you were born: 1984
Y - Year it is now: 2006
Y - Yellow: cute ang yellow flowers pero other than that I don't like it that much, just when I was a kid and was dreaming of becoming yellow 4

Z - Zoo Animal: sobrang nacu-curious ako kung meron ba talagang gorilla sa Manila Zoo kasi for some unknown reason hindi kami lagi dumadaan sa may cage nila pag field trip nung elem samantalang taun-taon kami pumupunta dun. Pero sa totoo lang, I don't like the idea of putting animals in any sort of cage, I feel sad for them.
Z - Zodiac: Gemini
Z - Zoolander: Hindi ko ata napanood yun

Plant Design atbp.

Hindi ko pa man nakakalimutan yung dusang dinanas ko sa paggawa ng plant design namin, e eto na naman ang isang pahirap sa buhay. Bad trip, ayoko na talaga. Ni hindi pa man gumagaling yung sakit ng likod at balikat na natamo ko sa mahigit na dalawang linggong pagpapaikot-ikot at pagpindot ng mouse at pag-iisip sa harap ng computer. Leche, ang sakit talaga, lam mo yun, para akong sinaksak sa me balikat, ang hapdi. Yung plant design na yun talaga ang rurok ng lahat ng mga hirap sa buong buhay ko sa kolehiyo. Tumira kami ng mga kagrupo ko sa iisang bahay sa loob ng mmahigit na dalawang linggo. Nung umpisa mejo buo pa ang pananalig namin na matatapos namin siya bago ang pasahan ng grades. Pero habang lumilipas ang mga araw, napapagtanto na namin ang realidad na hinding hindi mangyayari yun. Kaso, wala naman kaming magawa kaya tuloy pa rin kami sa pagtrabaho. Impyerno talaga ang paggawa. Bukod sa napakainit na dahil sa summer, kami rin ay unti-unti nang umiinit ang mga ulo dahil pakiramdam namin wala nang katapusan ang ginagawa namin. Kakaiba na talaga, pati pamamaraan namin ng pag-uusap kakaiba na rin, lam niyo yun, me halo nang kawalan ng pasensya. Lumalabas lang kami para kumain ng panandalian o kaya man magpasa ng mga natapos na sa adviser namin. Ang adviser namin...haaay...isa siyang...tsk tsk tsk...ayoko nang magsalita. Magaling siya pero WAG NA WAG niyo siyang kukunin na adviser sa plant design kung ayaw niyong magpakamatay.

Balik sa kwento. Yun na nga, minsan nagkakasya lang kami sa isang latang sardinas. Por Dios! Isang lata para sa limang tao! Pero yung malaki naman, hehehe. Pero halos hindi nga kami kumakain ng sardinas sa bahay e at konti pa rin ang laman nun para sa aming lahat! Terible talaga.

Ganito ang ekesena sa pang-araw-araw, hindi rin naman kami nagkakalayo ng mga ginagawa e:
1.)Gising
2.)On ng computer
3.)Gawa na ng kung anuman
4.)Kain sandali (Minsan nakakalimutan pa, lalo na ang agahan)
5.)Trabaho ulit
6.)Kain sandali
7.)Nuod KIM SAM SOON, ang tanging palabas na napapanood namin ni Erma at Iche
8.)Trabaho hangga't kaya
9.)Tulog

Mukang hindi naman masyado mahirap? Ha! Pag yan ginawa mo ng mahigit dalawang linggo, nakakalokang tunay. E pano pag weekends, edi walang KIM SAM SOON? Siya na nga! At sobrang kakarampot lang ng oras na nilalaan namin sa pagkain kumpara sa oras na ginagamit namin sa paggawa noh. Maaga na rin pag natulog kami ng alas-dose o ala-una.
Hay, iniisip ko lang ang mga pangyayari e napapagod na ako.

May kanya-kanya rin kaming pagkakataon na dumating na sa puntong pinanghihinaan na kami ng loob, at luluha na lang kami ng basta, e ano pa nga bang magagawa namin? Ala nga namang basagin namin yung mga gamit dun e hindi naman namin bahay yun? Kaya ayun, iiyak na lang ang sama ng loob. Nung mga bandang dulo na, sadyang nagkakasawaan na talaga kami, tipong sinasabihan na namin ang isa't isa na wag muna kaming magkikita nang matagal na panahon kasi nakakasuka na, medyo biro na medyo totoo. Kakaiba na talaga ang timpla ng mga ulo namin nun, para na kaming tunay na magkakapatid kung mag-usap. Mabuti? Hindi! Yung tipong pag-uusap ng magkakapatid na halos wala nang pakialam kung nakakasakit dahil sanay na, ganon. Pero ayun nga, dahil sanay na kami wala na kaming pakiramdam sa mga ganong hiritan.

Para sa akin, ang pinakamalalang nangyari ay nung dumating ang mga kabarkada naming ayos na ayos ang mga mukha't pananamit samantalang kami ay wala pang suklay, ligo at kain. Patapos na kami nun e. Edi ayun, nandun sila at nilalaro nila yung asong hindi man talaga pumupunta dun sa pinatatrabahuhan namin. Mukhang naging masyado siyang masaya siya sa pakikipaglaro sa kanila kaya pati yung kordon ng kuyente pinagtripan, dalawang beses niya hinugot yung saksakan. Ang resulta? Nag-crash lang naman PC ko, naglaho lahat ng files ko sa buong taon, ang mga files na pinakaimportante sa college life ko. Lahat lahat. At siyempre kasama na dun yung pipings na ginawa kong ng tatlong araw. Pinakuha ko na lang sa tatay ko yung computer. Para akong nagtemporary insanity nung gabing yun, hindi ko na magawang umiyak sa halip, parang ang saya saya ko at pinagkukukulit ko ang mga tao at maya maya natulog na lang ako. Pagkagising, isang buong araw pa ulit ang ginugol ko sa pag-ulit ng pesteng pipings na iyan. Pag-uwi ko tiningnan ko kung ano pang natira sa mga files ko. P***ng**a talaga. Pag iniisip ko lahat ng nawala parang gusto ko iuntog ang ulo ko sa pader. Umiyak na lang ako ng umiyak sa harap ng PC. Hindi ko talaga kinakaya, hanggang ngayon, pag iniisip ko siya parang ang sarap... Yun na yun, nangyari na. T*n*i*a.


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Pero kahit na sa pangkabuuang tanaw, isa talagang kalbaryo ang dumapo sa amin, marami rin namang mabuti at masayang alaalang napulot. Nakakatuwa sa kung paanong sa mga simpleng pamamaraan ay napapasaya namin ang isa't isa. Nagkakantahan kami, nagbibiruan, nagaalaskahan at kung anu-ano pa. Ang abnormal kasi naming lahat e, limang mga wirdong tao na pinagsama-sama sa iisang bahay. Siguro kasi mababaw rin naman ang kaligayahan naming lahat kaya nagkakasundo kami sa kalokohan. Paborito ko pag kinakanta na namin ang Moments of Love na sisimulan sa "dudududu dudu dududududududu dudududu du, moments of love..." at yung "coz i had a bad day, choba choba..." as in ganung lyrics ang kinakanta namin, hindi kasi namin alam kasunod e. Minsan tsismisan grande, pag-usapan ang mga tao-tao at madalas nakakabuo na kami ng kung anu-anong kwento kutsero kasi ginagawan namin sila nga mga script sa buhay, syempre paborito namin gawan ng istorya ang adviser namin, hehehe. Meron din kaming kanya-kanyang sinusubaybayang palabas na nagbibigay din ng panandaliang saya, ako, si Erma at Iche, Kim Sam Soon, si Lui, A.I. at Encantadia, si Raissa naman, Naruto.

Minsan naman may mga bisita kami. Masaya kapag magulang ang bumibisita sa amin kasi ibig sabihin makakakain kami ng matino kaya nagpapasalamat talaga ako sa mga magulang ko, ni Iche at nanay ni Erma. Ang saya nga e, nung isang beses, dahil sa sobrang kahabagan, nilibre kami ng mga magulang ni Iche sa Kamay-Kainan, buffet, ang sarap!!! Nung mga panahong yun para kaming hindi nakaranas ng pagkain sa restaurant sa buong buhay namin, pagpasok namin para kaming mga batang abot-tenga ang mga ngiti sa sobrang pananabik. Ang sarap! Ang saya! Minsan naman pinupuntahan din kami ni Hans at RJ para dalhan ng pagkain kaya salamat din sa kanila. Salamat din sa mga dyosa sa pagbisita kahit na na-excite talaga yung aso sa pagdating nila at pinagtripan tuloy yung kable. Salamat din sa lahat ng nagbigay ng moral support tulad ng mga orgmates namin at lalo na sa mga CO-EC namin. Sa isang banda, natutuwa ako dahil sa suporta, tulong at kawang-gawang nakamit namin habang gumagawa kami. Nakakatuwa talaga na nagawa naming malampasan yung pagsubok na yun kahit na umaabot na talaga kami sa mga limitasyon namin. Sobrang nagpapasalamat din ako dahil buti na lang kasundo ko ang mga kasama ko sa bahay na iyon, pakiramdam ko tuloy sobrang magkakalapit na kami sa isa't isa. Ayoko nang maulit pa ito kahit kelan pero laking pasasalamat ko na kayo ang kasama ko at mami-miss ko talaga kayo Iche, Erma, Louie at Raissa.


PD Soundtrack:

1.) Unwritten
2.) Borrowed Heaven
3.) Moments of Love
4.) Bad Day (choba choba)
5.) Because of You
6.) Angels Brought Me Here
7.) Big Yellow Taxi
8.) Inside Your Heaven
9.) Big Yellow Taxi
10.) You're Beautiful
11.) Yellow

etc.

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April 19, 2006

Ngayon, wala na akong kahit anong dapat gawin kundi hintayin ang graduation, kaya naglinis muna ako ng mailbox. Sa paghahalughog, nahanap ko tong tulang ito, paborito ko to dati e. Eto yung tinula ko sa klase nung 4th year high school sa Pinoy, kabisado ko pa nga ito noon e. Ang ganda, ang lungkot.



Dahong Lagas

Namamalas mo bang ang dahong nalagas,
Laruan ng hangin sa gitna ng landas,
Kung minsan sa iyong kamay ay mapadpad
Gaya ng paglapit ng kawawang palad?

Ako ay ganyan din, balang araw,irog,
Kung humahagibis ang bagyo at unos
Kagaya ay dahon sa gabing malungkot,
Ako sa piling mo'y ihahatid ng Diyos.

Naririnig mo ba ang munting kuliglig
Na sa hatinggabi'y mag-isa sa lamig,
At sa bintana mo'y awit din nang awit
Ng nagdaang araw ng sawing pag-ibig?

Ako man ay ganyan din, darating ang araw
Na kung ako'y iyong sadyang nalimutan,
Ang kaluluwa ko'y ikaw'y lalapitan
At sa hatinggabi'y payapang hahagkan.

Paghihip ng hangin, pagguhit ng kidlat,
Kung ang hangi't ulan ay napakalakas,
Kagaya ng dahon sa iyo'y papadpad,
Gaya ng kuliglig sa iyo'y tatawag.

At akong wala na sa iyong paningin,
Limot na ng madla't halos limot mo na rin,
Walang anu-ano sa gabing madilim,
Dahong ipapadpad sa iyo ng hangin.

Jose Corazon de Jesus

UP Life

( ) worried about getting bullied by fratmen or getting killed in a riot
( ) got bullied by fratmen or was killed in a riot
( ) witnessed a riot
( ) watched the oblation run (yes, nasalubong ko pa sila lahat)
( ) made friends with a teacher
( ) was tricked as a freshman into attending a rally / prayer meeting
(X) wore red or black on one of those wear red or wear black days
(X) wore red on Valentines Day
( ) wore black on Valentine's Day
(x) celebrated a birthday at Mang Jimmy's<--actually, bday ng ibang tao
( ) learned UP Naming Mahal
(X) got on the dean’s list (CS or US)
(X) slept on a bench
( ) was an RA (registration assistant) or SA
(X) lied or begged to an RA for a slot in class<--teacher, hindi RA
(X) participated in a there's-only-one-more-slot-are you-feeling-lucky? raffle during registration
(X) jogged around the campus
( ) visited the Vargas Museum
(X) knew at least one xerox lady, manong, or technician by name
( ) attended university level graduation
(X) got an activist for a teacher
( ) itched from higad bites
(X) had gotten a 5.0 in something
(X) had taken a crap in school
( ) watched a La Salle vs. Ateneo UAAP game
( ) watched a UP vs. any school basketball game (where UP won)
(X) gave a powerpoint presentation
(X) studied in CASAA
( ) studied in McDonald's or Jollibee Philcoa for one full night and bought just one regular-sized drink
( ) studied along Katipunan
( ) studied along Katipunan and affected the mannerisms of a stereotypical Atenean (accent and all)
(X) watch a play that's not required for CommIII
(X) went stargazing
(X) ate in Chocolate Kiss, Tea Room (in CHE) or Chateau Verde
(X) slept in the lib
( ) struck up a conversation with a taong grasa
( ) wrote to / for the collegian
( ) seriously pondered about the identity/ies of the people described in Eksenang Peyups
( ) went to the chapel (either of the two)
(X) got a pebble stuck in your shoe/slippers while walking in Sunken Garden
(X) cut class with your block to watch a movie<--hindi ako masyado mahilig sa movies e
( ) had a voltes V for a teacher
( ) took a class under Joseph Palis
( ) lied to the transcript lady to get a transcript earlier than the standard 3 months
(X) went to a Freshman-only concert (where you had to show your form 5 to prove freshmanhood)
(X) subsisted on just streetfood (fishballs, half footlongs, kwekwek, squidballs/rolls, mais, dirty ice cream) for a day<--mej naging extra-sensitive ang tyan ko this college e
( ) learned how to smoke<--hehe
(X) went on an out-of-town trip during a break with blockmates or orgmates
( ) fell in love<--tsk tsk
(X) actually read the book you keep borrowing from the lib
(X) played cards during your free time
(X) dress in business attire
( ) sumabit sa jeep
( ) got sung to or sung to someone in class during Valentine's day
(X) watched the lantern parade
(X) helped out a total stranger
( ) helped out a total stranger because he/she was hot
(X) learned to stay awake for more than 24 or 48 hours straight
( ) got bullied by fratmen and feeling cool wannabe people who were actually losers
( ) took Wednesday and/or Sat classes WILLINGLY
( ) volunteered for the pahinungod
(X) ate "tasteless white sauce" pasta from cock-a-noodle-doo
( ) got a boyfriend/girlfriend
(X) took time to read the vandalism in the CR
(X) watched a sexy art film for any GE class
( ) got held up or pickpocketed
( ) felt depressed because you were not as good academically (or popular) as you were in high school
(X) did a last minute paper
( ) had spent a lot for 1x1 ID pictures (for index cards and teachers’ seat plans)
(X) got exempted from final exams
( ) got exempted from a final exam but still took it
( ) attended a varsity pep rally
(X) watched LIVE AIDS, Androgyny, Maskipaps or any well-known variety show
( ) promised to quit smoking<--I plan to, pero no promises
( ) got into at least one (org- or council-sponsored) adventure race
(X) knew where the best restrooms are on campus (NSRI and Bahay ng Alumni - for those moments when Mother Nature just has to call)
(X) joined an org
(X) allowed yourself to make mistakes
( ) went to the gym in spite of having no PE class just to ogle varsity players / cute boys
(X) took summer classes
(X) admired the oblation
(X) made a video for a project
(X) had a crush on a teacher
( ) had a teacher who had a crush on / tried to court you
( ) attended your ROTC Bivouac
( ) faked sickness to get an absence excused
( ) got your car scratched by one of those "kuya bantayan ko kotse niyo" kids (no car)
( ) took a PE class where you had to pay for tuition (i.e. sportsclimbing, ten pin bowling, scuba diving, etC)
(X) went to school in your crappiest yet most comfy clothes
(X) learned how to use the Bayantel pay phones
(X) participated in school activities
( ) caught the UP Pep Tryouts
( ) dated someone from UP
(X) rode an IKOT and TOKI
(X) found a tambayan
(X) went drinking at Sarah's
(X) learned how to beg for a higher grade
(X) used your 6 allowable absences wisely
( ) lived in a dorm
( ) volunteered to be beadle or go-to guy for your group / class
(X) had the worst schedule
( ) realized that there really is just one coconut tree on the sunken garden
(X) not used up all 6 allowable absences
(X) ate in ISSI, Treehouse, Mama Thai's and other more obscure cafeterias
(X) ate food Aristocart-style
(X) was active in your org
(X) attended an ACLE
( ) got as many app forms as you can during the job fair (yung pang chem engg lang)
(X) learned how to cram
(X) sold tickets for (or watch) an org-sponsored movie premiere
(X) saved money to Xerox all of your seatmate’s notes <--pero minsan lang naman, notes girl ako e
(X) had accidentally seen a make-out session
(X) slept in class
(X) finished a homework / assignment / paper in the shopping center or philcoa
(X) had mountains of unused sample exams and/or old testaments
(X) resolved to be "better this semester"
(X) slept during a test <--pero wala na talaga ako masagot nun e
(X) had groupmates from hell (ie no-shows, babblers, dependents, airheads, dreamers, idea stealers, plagiarists)
(X) learned how to work with groupmates from hell
( ) perfected the art of parking on campus
( ) had a bad encounter with one of the guards on campus
( ) developed a love for sisig
(X) practiced those UP cheers in the first meeting for PE class
(X) looked at microfilms in the library or poked through archives
(X) reserved a classroom, AVR, etc. for a class or org function
(X) attended UP Fair
(X) went to a library other than your own college's to research
( ) lost a perfectly functioning umbrella<--hindi ako nagdadala ng payong e
(X) used consultation hours properly
( ) went to the Guidance Office for real,heart-to-heart guidance
(X) went to the infirmary
(X) Attend class with a hangover...
(X) Drink beer or alcohol while inside UP grounds..
(X)Walked all the way to Philcoa or Katipunan from UP (or a 2km radius from
campus grounds)
( )Buy frogs from NSRI or a Bio department...
(X)Maxed out on the 6 allowed unexcused absences but DID NOT drop
( )Got invited or pursued by a sorority or fraternity
(X)Wore slippers to school (hindi Dupe or Havaianas, regular slippers lang)
(X)Had a professor who smoked in class..
( )Got diagnosed by the Infirmary as pregnant or infected with STD.

Post-Talentine

Halos buong araw ako tulog. Kasi naman, nitong linggong ito, kakarampot lang pahinga ko. Kagabi alas-dose na ako nakauwi kasi nagtangka pa akong mag-fair dahil andun HS friends ko, but no, naghahanap ako ng auto load pero pagtingin ko sa bag ko, wala cellphone ko. Hindi rin naman ako masyado nag-alala kasi nag-isip akong mabuti at naisip ko na naiwan ko siya sa sasakyan ni Iche kasi nagbihis kami dun at tinanggal ko yung cellphone ko in the process. Ayun, hindi ako natuloy, sayang. Pag-uwi ko, naramdaman ko ang matinding pagka-lobat. Dumiretso na ako sa kwarto at habang binabasa ko yung mga tula dun sa organizer ni Ate na blangko hindi ko na namalayan at nakatulog na ako sa lapag. Nagising lang ako ng mga 5:30 ng umaga kasi nananakit na likod ko at yun nga, bukas pa ilaw, patay electric fan at nakahandusay ako sa lapag. Kaya yun, umayos na ako at natulog ulit. Gumising ako ng mga alas-9 tapos sumamba. Pag-uwi ko natulog ako ulit tapos nagising ng mga pasado alas-kwatro.

Ang saya ng Talentine kagabi! Todo-bigay lahat ng batches na nag-perform, ang OT talaga ng mga KEMers! Sayang nga lang, 3rd place lang kami, hindi rin kasi kami masyado handa e. Nag-ayos lang kami mga 2 hours before. Pero maganda pa rin presentation namin, talented talaga batch namin e, 02B da best! Hehehe.

Friday night: Nag-fair kami c/o Erma. Nakakapagod siya. I suddenly remembered how I hate being amidst a place so crowded with people. Pero syempre fair yun, nag-octopus kami, kumain, tumambay at...yun na pala yun. Konti lang yung ok na bands e, medyo disappointing. Keri lang, kasama ko naman mga friends ko at matagal-tagal na rin kaming hindi lumalabas nang magkakasama.:) Umuwi kami at around 3:30 am at kina Iche kami natulog ni Erma kasi may 142 pa kami the following day. Hay 142, 142, 142...bakit mo ba ako pinapahirapan ng gani2...Hehehe, corny. Parusa yung dinidesign kong reactor, it's going nowhere, nade-depress na ako dahil dito, leche.

Thursday night: Miting de Avance.

Wednesday: Woke up at around 4 am for the plant visit. We went to James Hardie. Highlight of the tour: 1-hour stop at Market! Market! Hehe, joke! Pero first time ko makapunta dun and first times are almost always fun.:) Pagdating sa school, I consulted with Ma'am Escoto my lostness in the liquefaction reactor. I must say that I wasn't very enlightened, huhu. I researched in Eng'g lib later and played Nerts after. I then met up with my friends, ate dinner, and entered the fair since we had free tickets c/o Anne. But I was inside for less than 30 minutes only since I was feeling very sleepy.

Tuesday night: Valentine's Day! I had a date with my single girl kabarkadas. We went to Libis for dinner, had some window shopping, and a bottle of beer. It was nice, I had a chance to catch up with them. But I had to go home early since my father picked me up at around 12:30.

Ayun.:)

Kanina, nung pauwi ako, natakot ako bigla. Pakiramdam ko kakaiba yung paligid. Nag-umpisa nung pagbaba ko sa jip sa katipunan, pakiramdam ko ang konti ng mga tao, pati na ng mga sasakyan, ni hindi man ako nahirapang tumawid. Tapos yung nasakyan kong jip kakaiba, walang konduktor tapos ang tahimik nung makina at ang dilim nung loob, tapos wala ding radyo, kinilabutan talaga ako. Basta kakaiba talaga, hindi ko rin maintindihan, tapos pati yung langit kakaiba, walang mga ulap at bituin pero parang nakakatakot yung liwanag. Bumaba ako sa Robinson's kasi magpapaprint sana ako pero ang aga nagsara nung mga tindahan, mga 8:30 pa lang naman yun. Tapos bababa sana ako sa Masinag pero naaninagan ko na sarado na rin yung mga pwede kong puntahan. Naglakad ako pauwi mula highway kasi naghahanap pa rin ako ng computer shop tapos wala na namang masyadong tao sa paligid. Dun pa sa pagpapaprintan ko sana, tokwa, ang daming nag-iinuman. Basta kakaiba ang hangin. Wirdo ko na ba? Basta natakot talaga ako kaninang pauwi samantalang nakauwi na naman ako nang di hamak na mas gabi pa. Buti na lang nasa bahay na ako, siguradong ligtas.

Anyway, mag-isa na lang ako ngayon sa baba at ayoko na magmuni-muni sa mga kawirdohan ko kanina. Last week was such a sickly week for me. Nung Wednesday hindi ako nakapasok kasi nilagnat ako, Monday pa lang hindi na oki pakiramdam ko kasi la ko gana kumain tapos ala pa ako kasabay, buti na lang kahit na late na, nakapag-lunch pa din kasi si Iche hindi pa rin pala kumakain. Pero nung Tuesday tinamad na talaga ako. Nung Thursday naman pumasok ako pero nung mga after lunch nangangati na mukha at kamay ko. Paguwi ko may mga pantal na ako. Pagkagising ko naman, wala na, iba na itsura ko, para akong nabugbog sa pamamaga. Hindi ako pumasok nung umaga kasi medyo malala talaga. Pero pumasok pa rin ako nung hapon kasi ayoko na maka-miss ng 136 namin at me 142 overnight kami kinagabihan. Ayun naman, pumasok ako nang may mga pantal sa muka at namamaga ang mata, kahindik-hindik. Pero keri lang, hindi naman na lumala. Ang salarin: palabok.

Kaka-exam lang namin. Wala akong masabi talaga sa halimuyak ni Sir! Hoohoo! Sa may aisle pa naman ako nakaupo at lagi siya dumadaan malapit sa akin. Yeesh!

Ayun lamang. Magsasagot pa ako ng app form e. Grabe, I'm sick and tired of app forms na talaga!!!

Survey break

Wala akong masabi sa ch 10 ng smith, parusa. at mas mahaba pa ang 11, good luck na lang.

1. When you looked at yourself in the mirror today, what was the first thing you thought?
i need more rest

2. How much cash do you have on you?
mga mahigit isang daan

3. What's a word that rhymes with "TEST"?
best

4. Favorite planet
Jupiter

5. Who is the 4th person on your missed call list on your cell?
wala e, kakabura lang

6. What's your favorite text you still have saved on your phone?
"You are a waterfall, and I, a stream. You will forever flow through me but I can never contain you, and you will never wash me away."- sobrang tagal na, from early high school pa to and I really know it by heart, ewan ko ba, tragic eklavu

7. What shirt are you wearing?
Pisay CAT shirt

8. Do you "label" yourself?
minsan siguro

9. Name the brand of your shoes you're currently wearing?
hindi ko lam, tsinelas lang e

10. Bright or dark room?
bright

11. What do you think about the person who took this survey before you?
super miss ko na

13. What happened to number 12?
Onga noh?

14. What were you doing at midnight last night?
reading 126

15. What did your last text message you received on your cell say?
Mahabang good morning text ni allan.

16. Where is your nearest 7-11?
sa Masinag

17. What's a saying that you say a lot?
In furnace...

18.Who told you they loved you last?
pame, ang sweet mo talaga:)

19. Last furry thing you touched?
si mingming

20. How many drugs have you done in the past three days?
mga anim na celestamine, tatlong iterax. hehe, i had an allergic attack kasi e, terible, nagmukha akong kamatis

21. How many rolls of film do you need to develop?
wala

22. Favorite age you have been so far?
21!

23. Your worst enemy?
procrastination

24. What is your current desktop picture?
KEM opening ceremonies

25. What was the last thing you said to someone?
painit ng tubig

26. If you had to choose between a million bucks or to be able to change a major regret?
million bucks

27. Do you like someone?
walang panahon e

After Insaniquarium...

Nag-overnight ulit kami nung Friday para sa 142. Whew, 3 consecutive Fridays na kaming nago-overnight dito sa bahay! Pero nitong nakaraang Biyernes masaya dahil…secret…kami lang ang may alam nun…hihihi, exciting!!! Pero nung umaga nabad-trip ako sa Ate ko, sobrang inuusig niya ako, bakit lagi na lang daw kami sa bahay gumagawa. Muntik na akong umiyak nang lubos nung sinumbong ko siya kay Mama. Hindi na tuloy ako nakapag-agahan. Ayun, diretso sa skul. Oki naman yung consultation namin may memorable na ginawa si Iche nung consultation, hindi ko talaga makakalimutan yun, ang saya!!! Kinuwento ko pa nga yun kina Mama at natawa din sila. Pero pagkatapos ng consultation sobrang bangag na ako kaya umuwi na ako agad at siya nga, pag-uwi ko kumain lang ako sandali tapos nakatulog agad. Ang dali ko na naman mapagod, maybe it’s that time of the month na soon. Hehe.

Nagkaroon ako ng mga sugat sa wrists ko dahil dun sa liquid na ini-extract namin, may blisters na siya at nung pinakita ko kay Mama pinagalitan pa ako, kesyo magpepeklat na daw yun ekek. At ang exag ha, magjacket daw ako sa lab, yung tipong balut na balot talaga para hindi daw ako madampian nung asido. Pero magla-lab gown na ako this week para mas safe naman. Nakakabangag tumambay sa lab habang kumukulo yung mga mixture, puro ethanol na nalalanghap namin. Lagi tuloy akong bagsak pag-uwi sa bahay.

In furnace, tumira kami sa lab this week, as in lumalabas na lang kami para kumain at pagkasara ng lab at nung nag-job fair. Pero keri lang, at least may net na sa lab at dinadala din naman ni iche laptop niya kaya nakakagawa rin kami ng ibang mga bagay. Hindi kami makakapag-lab for two days kasi may gagamit ng work area namin kaya kelangang gumawa muna ng ibang bagay. Mami-miss kita lab!!! Yak, ang baduy, wahaha!!!

Gusto ko manood ng Kombo Kombo this Tuesday, 20 pesos lang kasi tapos 16 bands. But no!!! Plant visit sa Wednesday kaya I’m torn. Pero namimiss ko na rin kasi high school friends ko, nag-MIA na naman ako ulit e. At wala pa rin akong napupuntahan show ng deltajoy maliban sa Maskipaps. Kaso nung unang plant visit kasi kung hindi pa ako tinext ni Louie, hindi ako nagising ng maaga kahit na nag-alarm ako, hindi na nga ako nakapag-shampoo nun sa sobrang madali e. Baka ngayon maiwanan na ako nang tuluyan pag pumunta pa ako dun sa gig. Bahala na, depende sa mood. If ever pumunta ako, hindi na lang ako iinom ng anything alcoholic o kaya man hindi na talaga ako matutulog para siguradong hindi ako ma-late. Ewan.

Napupuyat ako sa insaniquarium na ito a. Pero kanina habang naglalaro, ang dami kong napulot na aral. Hindi kelangan maraming-marami ang isda, oki na yung hindi masyado puno ng guppies yung tank pero kayang buhayin ang mga carnivores at ultracarnivores. Ika nga ni Erma, “law of diminishing marginal returns”, ayos na ang hindi masyado marami basta yung matitira ay productive at abot pa rin naman sa target ang nagagawa. Kaso syempre kelangan ingatan yung konting natitirang yun. Nakakainis pag bumibili ako ng pagkamahal-mahal na ultra-carnivore tapos miminsan lang na papatayin ng mga epal na aliens na yan, dead ang 10,000 dollars ko, minsan tatlo pa silang mamamatay sa isahang tirahan lang, 30,000 dollars na yun!!! hmp!!! Pero syempre hindi rin naman dapat pabayaang basta-basta na lang mamatay yung mga guppies, kahit minsan hindi talaga kinakaya ng powers na mapakain ang lahat, dapat pa ring gawin lahat para maalagaan sila. Hokei, ang OA ko na, insaniquarium lang ‘to. Pero aliw noh?

Tinatamad ako pumunta sa *tooooooooot*, kaso saying sa pera at lahat ata pupunta. Wateber, na-K-KJ mode na ako e. Pag iniisip ko kasi nakakatamd mag-prepare and stuff. Hehe, what a viscious cycle. Bahala na, kung may willing na pumalit sa slot ko oki lang na hindi ako pumunta. Pucha, ang corny ko, pero nakakasawa na kasi.

Haha, kamusta naman sa horoscope ko for today, so appropriate:

The stars are telling you that it's time to get out of a rut. The best way to do that? Take off for parts unknown as soon as you can. If you can't get out of town, explore a new neighborhood or see a foreign film.

Why not?!

Artist: Jack Johnson
Song: Banana Pancakes
Album: In Between Dreams
[Buy "In Between Dreams" CD]

You hardly even notice
When I try to show you this
Song it's meant to keep you
From doing what you're supposed to
Like waking up too early
Maybe we could sleep in
I'll make you banana pancakes

Pretend like it's the weekend now
And we could pretend it all the time
Can't you see that it's just raining
There ain't no need to go outside

But just maybe, hala ka ukulele
Mama made a baby
I really don't mind the practice
Because you're my little lady
Lady, lady love me
Because I love to lay here lazy
We could close the curtains

Pretend like there's no world outside
And we could pretend it all the time
Can't you see that it's just raining
There ain't no need to go outside

Ain't no need, ain't no need
Can't you see, can't you see
Rain all day and I don't mind

Telephone singing, ringing, it's too early
Don't pick it up
We don't need to
We got everything we need right here
And everything we need is enough
It's just so easy
When the whole world fits inside of your arms
Do we really need to pay attention to the alarm
Wake up slow, wake up slow

But baby, you hardly even notice
When I try to show you this
Song it's meant to keep you
From doing what you're supposed to
Like waking up too early
Maybe we could sleep in
I'll make you banana pancakes

Pretend like it's the weekend now
And we could pretend it all the time
Can't you see that it's just raining
There ain't no need to go outside

Ain't no need, ain't no need
Rain all day and I really really really don't mind
Can't you see, can't you see
We've got to wake up slow

Random Random

Kakainactive lang ng nonstop ko sa globe. I love globe! Ay, anlabo nun a. Anyway. Kaninang umaga nagpunta kami ni Erma sa Antipolo para maghanap ng kasoy shells para sa 136. Ang mahal ng pamasahe galing masinag a, 15 pesos for a jeepney ride up! Pero nag-enjoy naman ako sa biyahe, so reminiscent of going up to Baguio minus the very cold weather and painful butt from the long trip. Ayun, ang ganda naman ng view, second time ko pa lang kasi nakaakyat dun, una yung nagparehistro ako para sa eleksyon.

Pag dating ko dun, dumiretso ko sa McDo. Kaso late na pala nakaalis ng bahay si Erma kaya naghintay muna ako. Kaya tada! Ilabas ang Ang Pao ng McDo! Nakapaglunch ako for 25 pesos, nyaknyaknyak! Pagdating ni Erma, nagtanong na kami kung saan nakakakuha ng balat ng kasuy. Buti na lang super helpful nung isang ale at mega inalalay niya kami sa paghanap, tinawagan niya pa yung bagsakan/lutuan ng kasuy at hinanap niya kami ng trike na marunong pumunta dun. Pagdating namin dun, me nakausap kaming isang mama, sabi niya ubos na daw yung balat kasi hinakot na siya kahapon at nanlulumo na kami. Pero kakaiba kasi naaaninag naman namin yung saku-sakong parang pakiramdam namin ay balat dun sa may bandang sulok. Buti na lang naisipan niyang tanungin yung parang amo at yun na, lasing pala yung manong na nakausap namin! Asus! Tanghaling tapat lasing, tama ba yun!? In furnace, sobrang namumula yung mata niya kaya hindi naman nakakapagtaka. At siya na nga, hindi kami nagkamali, yung mga sako ay puno ng cashew nut shells! Jackpot! Hehe, babaw. Ang saya, feeling plant visit, andun din yung lutuan. Picture picture pa kami ni Erma dun no, syempre dapat may ebidensya, hahaha! Bumili kami ng sampung kilo. Ang bait din nung ale dun. Nakakatuwa kasi ambabait ng mga taong nakausap namin. Ambabait pala ng mga tao sa Antipolo, hehe. At nung pauwi na kami nakakatuwa kasi parang sikat na ang CNS sa pagkakaroon ng asido kahit na mga karaniwang tao lang alam nila yun, astig. Bago kami sumakay bumili ako ng suman, si Erma bumili ng kalamay bago kami pumunta sa biyakan. Kaso sana bumili din ako ng kalamay kasi yun pala yung mas gusto ni Mama, umarya na naman kasi ang kakuriputan ko e. Ang saya, hindi kami nabigo sa pagpunta namin dun. Bow.

Pag-uwi ko naabutan ko pa yung laban ni Pacquiao. Ang galing, nanalo siya!!! Mabuhay!

Tapos nun, gumawa na akong ng mga assignments, app forms. Yada yada yada. Fast forward.

Syempre, hindi ko pwedeng i-miss ang TV night ko, Joey-Fran-Will and Grace-F combo ito. Nakakainis yung F, parang naiiyak na ako nung pinapanood ko siya kanina lalo na dun sa night life segment. Hay, miss ko na maglakwatsa. Ngayon kasi ang depinisyon ko na ata ng gimik ay plant visit! Napaka-geeky. Pero oki lang rin, mami-miss ko din to after grad (ata). At masaya naman ako sa mga topics namin sa 136 at 142 kahit haggaran talaga. At saka feeling ko super close na kami ng grupmates ko, si Raissa, Lui, Iche at Erma. Special mention ke Erma at Iche kasi si Iche sa 190 lang naiba, si Erma naman talagang mega block-mate ko this sem sabay magka-way pa kami pauwi kaya ewan ko na lang.

Lapit na matapos term namin, sadness. Super mami-miss ko EC-mates ko. Pero aasikasuhin ko muna Talentine. Dapat masaya! Kasi wala akong Valentine's date, nyaknyaknyak ulit.

Kakaiba, hindi pa ako inaantok. Minamahal ko na si Jack Johnson, ang soothing ng mga songs niya, parang John Meyer na Coldplay na Maroon 5. Salamat sa pinsan ko, binigyan niya kami ng softcopy nung album e. Masyado na ata akong nasanay magpuyat. Naku, baka ma-late ako sa meeting time namin bukas sa 136, magagalit si Miss Minchin Erma. Tutulog na ako. Gud am sa lahat!!!:)



Inaudible Melodies
Jack Johnson

Brushfire fairytales 
Itsy bitsy diamond wells 
Big fat hurricanes 
Yellow bellied given names 
Well shortcuts can slow you down 
And in the end we're bound 
To rebound off of we 

Well dust off your thinking caps 
Solar powered plastic plants 
Pretty pictures of things we ate 
We are only what we hate 
But in the long run we have found 
Silent films are full of sound 
Inaudibly free 

Slow down everyone 
You're moving too fast 
Frames can't catch you when 
You're moving like that 

Inaudible melodies 
Serve narrational strategies 
Unobtrusive tones 
Help to notice nothing but the zone 
Of visual relevancy 
Frame-lines tell me what to see 
Chopping like an axe 

Or maybe Einstein should just relax 

Slow down everyone 
You're moving too fast 
Frames can't catch you when 
You're moving like that 

Well Plato's cave is full of freaks 
Demanding refunds for the things they've seen 
I wish they could believe 
In all the things that never made the screen 
And just slow down everyone 
You're moving too fast 
Frames can't catch you when 
You're moving like that 
Slow down everyone 
You're moving too fast 
Frames can't catch you when 
You're moving like that 
Moving Too.... 

Kung anu-ano lang

Hello!!! Wala lang, naghahanap lang muna ako ng outlet, nahahaggard na kasi ako e. Kahapon ang dami dami kong inisip na dapat gawin pero nakalimutan (uy, pinapatugtog ang all i have, gusto ko to e) kong may pagsamba pala ng umaga at binyag ng pamangkin ko sa hapon. Maaga ako natulog at maaga nagising pero nung ini-install ko na yung Visio, nagloloko yung burner at hindi niya mabasa. Ang tagal tagal ko sa pag-aayos sa Visio na yan, factsheet! Hindi ko rin naman naayos agad. At nagloloko rin kasi yung profile ko kaya gumawa pa ako ng bagong profile at na-OC pa ako at binutingting ko pa yung mga programs na nakuha ko ke iche nung nag-142 kami dito nung Friday. Ang dami ko nang games! Pero hindi ako masaya kasi hindi ko naman malalaro. Buti na rin nagpunta kami sa pinsan ko kasi dun ko inayos yung visio at gumana na siya pag-uwi ko. Nakakahiya nga e, eat and run ako, ang dami pa kasing gagawin e. Mukhang mas magiging haggard pa ang mga susunod na linggo, sana kayanin. Kahapon nga e, sabadong sabado hanggang 6 nasa skul pa ko, kasi naman si ma'am pagkatapos ng isang oras na consultation me pinagawa pang madami sa amin. Oki na rin, at least ayos na yun, gagawin din naman namin yun sooner or later kaya mabuting matapos na. Pero natutuwa ako kasi may pinabasa sa aking patent si Miss Minchin No.2 (aka Erma) at mukhang may future ang CNSL sa fuel additive, nyahaha! Sana magawa namin ito, syet, nae-excite ako! Marian Fidel, humanda ka! Pero mas masaya sana kung may stipend na ano? Factsheet na DOST yan!!! Hindi ko na tuloy na-claim yung gradpic ko, wahehe. Yaan mo na, makukuha ko rin yan balang araw, hindi ko rin naman masyado feel kunin e. At balita ko lumipat na ang F3 sa Recto, napaswerte ko talaga. Akala ko pa naman madali ko lang makukuha kasi sa UST lang ang kapatid ko. Hay, sana maging mas oki ang buhay ko. Akala ko pa naman masaya ang pagpasok ng taon, pero EOEA na pala agad at sobrang napagod kami dun. At lumalala rin ang sitwasyon dito sa bahay, wala na akong magawa kundi tanggapin lang ang kahit ano mang sibihin ni Mama. Pag maiksi ang kumot, matutong mamaluktot. Nalungkot pa ako sa nangyari sa kaibigan ko nung high school, putek, hindi ko pa siya natatawagan, sabi ko pa naman tatawag ako this weekend. Ang lungkot talaga, naka-relate pa kasi ako sa problema nila. Wala na akong oras para sa relaxation a. Ganito ba talaga dapat? Siguro nga, at 10 units lang ako sa lagay na ito. Pano pa kaya si Louie? Louie pasensya na kung hinahaggard ka na namin a at nakakahambalang na kami sa Memcom duties mo, kung nasan ka man ngayon, pasensya. Naku, pag nabasa 'to ng mga Miss Minchin namin(Iche at Erma), baka pagalitan ako nyan. Alert alert!!! May 126 pa! Nyahaha, ang saya pala magsulat ng ganito, walang tigil sa pagtype, sulat lang kung ano ang maisip. Ayan, wala na tuloy ako maisip. Tama na nga. Time's up. Mabuhay ang lahat ng may plant design at 136! Babay.

High School Days

1. Bakit ka nahuhuli sa pila bago mag flag ceremony?
Kasi lagi ring nahuhuli yung crush ko, para maganda ang view!!! Nyahaha!!!

2. Anong favorite mong bilhin sa canteen?
Cadbury Timeout, clubhouse na pizza flavor, at chocolait, Saint Pwe Pizza

3. Na-guidance / principal’s / ARO ka ba?
Hindi naman ata, yung regular chenes exam lang sa guidance

4. Sinong favorite teacher(s) mo?
Ma'am Sanchez (Pinoy), Ma'am Bawagan (World History), oki rin si sir Job at Jleg. Pwede na si Ma'am Vea, marami rin ako natutunan kay Ma'am kaso parang habang tumatagal nagiging masungit siya, lalo na nung latter part ng 3rd year bio at Cell Bio elective nung 4th year.

5. Sinong most hated teacher mo?
Sir Coronado, hands down. sa kanya ako unang nakatamo ng bagsak na exam, earth sci yun, lech.

6. San ka usually tumatambay?
nung extern pa ako sa front lobby pag hapon, canteen pag lunch time, minsan back lobby. nung dormer na ako, sa dorm, hehe.

7. Your most unforgettable experience?
Dami e, yung pagti-trip ng jadeng kay mam florentino.
Nung natuto akong mag-bike nung fair.
Nang umiyak ako, fair ulit.
Carpoolmates lakwatsa.
Playing sita in ramayana, halos hindi man kami nag-usap ni rama during the whole play, nung pinahuli ko lang yung golden deer.
Iliad, nasa stage ako during the whole play and I had to speak at the top of my lungs forever para marinig ng audience, narrator kasi ako.
The little notes that I exchanged with my barkada lalo na nung hindi na kami magkakaklase, it really cheered me up, they were just the sweetest.
Pagkuha ng soil sample sa pasig na kadiri talaga sabay nag shangrila kami after.
Muon party.
Yung unang bagsak na iniyakan ko ever.
Nung finally nagdorm ako, sabay naging extern yung crush ko, shet.
Jade Party sa bahay sa Antipolo.
Nung nawalan ng tubig for three days straight at hindi na-suspend ang klase, sabay sinuspend for three days naman, nung may tubeg na, wirdo talaga yun.
Nung napaiyak namin si Mam Mariano, wahaha, ang evil.
Basta madami, nakakahiya, nakakasaya, nakakalungkot at kung anu-ano pa.

8. Most unforgettable anything in high school?
Hmmm...first day of classes, late kasi ako nakapasok, mga more than a week late.

9. Varsityme?
Masyado akong magaling for varsity, bawal daw may superpowers dun e.

10. Sinong unang nakilala mo nung high school?
si Jakes or Shayne or Dea or Nikki J. Bigla kasi nila akong kinulit nun e, kasi nga latecomer ako.

11. Sino-sino kabarkada mo nung high school?
Mims, Nics, Ange, Celine, Soli plus may iba pa akong close friends na hindi naman talaga barkada.

12. Namimiss mo ba uniform mo?
Never, I hated it.

13. Ilang beses mo nawala ID mo?
Hindi ko maalala e.

14. Favorite teacher’s quotable quote?
Hindi ako masyado magaling umalala nyan e, but I remember Ma'am bernal forcing my classmate to "SHRIEK!!!" as in sinisigaw niya talaga yun at lagi niya kaming sinabihan na she likes spaghetti and meatballs in our essay answers. Si Sir Cipriano naman tinatawag na Gretchen lahat ng babaeng estudyante kasi hindi niya kabisado mga pangalan nila.

15. Most unforgettable person?
Syempre berks. at yung mga maintenance na may pangalan sa likod gaya ni Eliseo et al.

16. Best friend nung high school?
Basta mga kabarkada ko.

17. I-describe ang mukha mo sa grad .
Baboy!!! Double Chin, ang pangit ng hair ko, maiksing alanganin

18. Anong binibili mo sa labas pag uwian?
Nung sa carpool lagi kaming pumupunta sa starmart or sa cherry foodarama, minsan nag-grocery kami ng mga ka-service ko para may pagkain habang naglalaro sa sasakyan ng kung anuman, cards or the like, minsan jollibee or greenwich. Pag may pera kumakain kami ng Mexican food sa Miggy's sa may Visayas or Project 8, sarap! Basta masaya sa carpool nun e, para kaming barkada, puro pa siraulo mga kasama ko, pag walang pera, utangan galore. Lagi tuloy nagagalit si Mama kasi kung kelan nagcarpool ako saka lagi akong late umuwi.

19. Nakakita ka na ba ng multo sa school?
Wala naman, pero lagi ako nagugulat sa mga pusa sa dorm noon. May nagpakamatay na kasi dun sa may wing namin e. May isang beses nakatulog ako tapos pag-gising ko madilim na tapos super hindi ako makaalis sa kama ko, nusa upper bunk kasi ako, tapos super dilim sa kwarto at bigla talaga akong inatake ng takot. hindi ako nakadilat at nakagalaw hanggang sa dumating na yung isa kong room mate at binuksan yung ilaw. Abnormal ko talaga nun.

20. Nangarag ka ba sa updating / paghahabol sa graduation?
Hind ata masyado, class officer pa kasi ako noon kaya sila ang naghahabol sa akin kasi treasurer ako and they will not be cleared unless pirmahan ko clearance nila, mwahaha!!! dun sa ibang papirma, basta hindi ako magpapapirma unless sure na pwede na, ayoko ngang pahirapan sarili ko noh.

EOY Survey

1) Was 2005 a good year for you?
Minsan good, minsan hindi.

2) What was your favorite moment of the year?
Announcement of overall Enggweek ranking, nakaka-high talaga :D

3) What was your least favorite moment of the year?
Hmmm...ngayon atang mga panahong ito. I'm really hoping that things will look up this coming 2006.

4) Where were you when 2005 began?
At home.

5) Who were you with?
Family

6) Where will you be when 2005 ends?
bahay din naman

7) Who will you be with when 2005 ends?
same people

8) Did you keep your new years resolution of 2005?
I don't make new year's resolutions.

9) Do you have a new years resolution for 2006?
Wala pa rin, kung may gusto man akong baguhin sa buhay ay hindi ko pa yun naiisip sa nagyon

10) Did you fall in love in 2005?
secret, hehe, joke. As if

11) If yes, with who?
walang panahon, ano ba

12) If yes, do they know?
they? assuming to ah

13) Are you still in love with them?
Grabe, it never stops

14) You regret it?
There's nothing to regret

15) Did you breakup with anyone in 2005?
nyek, walang ib-break.

16) Did you make any new friends in 2005?
Of course, special mention ang mga co-EC ko na hindi ko ka-close dati, para na kaming barkada ngayon

17) Who are your favorite new friends?
EC!(new ah!)=D

18) What was your favorite month of 2005?
April saka December!!!

19) Did you travel outside of the Philippines in 2005?
hindi e.

20) How many different countries did you travel to in 2005?
wala naman

21) Did you lose anybody close to you in 2005?
wala naman

22) Did you miss anybody in the past year?HS friends ko, hindi ko na sila nakita nung latter part ng year, busy na kasi e tapos yung isa nagpunta pa US

23) What was your favorite movie that you saw in 2005?
Hindi ko pa maisip e. Kakapanood ko lang ng After the Sunset, maganda naman, naiyak ako

24) What was your favorite song from 2005?
hmmm... hindi ko masyado trip yung mga songs this year e, wala ata akong super nagustuhan.

25) What was your favorite record from 2005?
Wala akong maisip

27) Did you have a favorite concert in 2005?
Jamengg, hehe. yun lang ata napanood kong concert a. ay hindi, nonood pala ako ng fair, so that counts too.

28) Did you drink a lot of alchohol in 2005?
May part ng 2005 na mega inom talaga ako pero iwas muna ngayon.

29) Did you do a lot of drugs in 2005?
Of course not

30) How many people did you sleep with in 2005?
bastos!

31) Did you do anything you are ashamed of this year?
Meron siguro pero wala ko maisip for now

33) What was the worst lie someone told you in 2005?
Wala naman ata akong major lie na nagawa this year

34) Did you treat somebody badly in 2005?
Hmmm... mejo evil talaga ako minsan e, especially to my younger brother, hehe.

35) Did somebody treat you badly in 2005?
Wala naman akong na-feel

36) How much money did you spend in 2005?
I don't keep track, pero malamang kasi ngayon wala na talaga akong pera, as in.

37) What was your proudest moment(s) of 2005?
Engg week pa rin!:D

38) What was your most embarrassing moment of 2005?
hindi ko pa maisip.

39) If you could go back in time to any moment of 2005 and change something, what would it be?
wala naman, yun na yun.

40) What are your plans for 2006?
graduate, take board exams, work, travel, have a baby(joke!)

An Angel has fled...

Hay life, pupunta sana ngayong gabi si allan at si pame kaso yung “friend” ni allan ay tumangging sumama kasi nahihiya daw. Kaya eto, I’m stuck by myself. Nag-zuma ako sandali pero I decided to search na for the tabs para dun sa tugtog namin sa Tuesday.

Pero nalungkot talaga ako na hindi sila natuloy. Napansin ko kasi na I’m becoming more and more grouchy as the days go by. Maybe it’s because of the lack of sunlight, nabuburo na kasi ako dito sa bahay, feeling ko I’m losing touch of reality. Pero ang mas weird, hindi ko alam kung nags-stay ba ako sa bahay dahil wala akong pera or talagang ayaw ko lang talagang lumabas. Hay, ang moda kasi ng buhay ko ay extremes, either mega-gimik o trabaho ako or mega-bum ako sa bahay bihira mangyari yung in-between. Sa bagay, ganun naman talaga trip ko sa buhay, either total emptiness, exhaustion, or depression or ecstasy. Yak, ang sagwa nun a, basta, parang ganun.

Sa ngayon, depressed ako, our family’s situation is in extreme dump, I feel so helpless, and one of my best friends from high school just left for the States and there’s a chance that she won’t be going back here. She even called me in the airport before the boarding time and she told me about how she didn’t have the heart to tell us personally that she may not return if things go well for her there. I didn’t fully absorb it until this morning. When it finally sank in, my stomach did a three-sixty and I was washed over by sadness. I didn’t even say goodbye coz I thought that if I did say that, she may not really come back. I’ve known her for nine years now, and she has become one of the fortresses in my life. Whenever I’m in dire need she’s always just a text or a phone call away. I can’t even remember a time when she neglected my rantings. She is one of the few people I know who can really tell when I’m problematic though I’m doing the best “I’m totally happy and fine” act, titingnan niya lang ako tapos sasabihin niya “Hindi nga Maits?” Then we’d just talk it out over the phone, ym, over coffee or drinking sessions with my other close friends. They’d give me advice and whenever I look at their lives, I’d be totally inspired to have a good life and see how wonderful it has been and how I’m so blessed despite shortcomings. I’m really amazed at how well she can read me. My gulay, chunks are rising up in my throat now. I'll be crying like crazy in few seconds. Huhu, I really miss her.

10 things you like:
1. chocolates
2. travel!
3. hanging out with friends
4. will and grace
5. gilmore girls
6. changes which make my life better
7. taking long baths
8. nice hair days
9. sleeping
10. reading magazines and good books

3 things that make you happy:
1. conversations with friends
2. knowing that my family is well
3. UP KEM

3 things that anger you:
1. drivers who deliberately give kulang change, grrr, kakahayblad!
2. Liars, irresponsible and selfish people
3. when i can't find something that i really need and i'm pressed with time

10 things that you hate:
1-3. same as previous
4. kaplastikan
5. mga killjoy
6. sobrang arteng tao (yun bang masyadong maselan)
7. poverty
8. seeing my mama sad
9. Philippine politics
10. goodbyes:(

3 facts about your name:
1. hindi ko alam kung saan siya galing
2. pag tinatanong ko parent ko kung san siya galing sinasabi nila "wala lang"
3. I really hate it when people make fun of it, as in umiinit talaga ulo ko

5 facts about yourself:
1. I am a 5th year student at UP Eng'g
2. I haven't been in EK my entire life
3. I live in Antipolo
4. I have 2 siblings
5. I love watching TV

2 things you expect (at least for now)
1. this coming sem will be very exhausting... but fun!
2. Papa will bring Alex home from Marawi this week (sana talaga)

4 random thoughts:
1. nalulungkot ako kasi one of my best friends will be leaving for US this week
2. malamang bukas mag-iiyakan kami over lunch
3. sana things will get better
4. I wonder what my future life will be like?

Song you're listening to (give singer): wala naman

Time: 6:40pm

water raft

I found a temporary water raft. Somehow, it's really saved me from drowning. Just in time. Hay, nadedesperate housewives mode ako. I love Yia Yia Hall. Ay, ang gulo nitong entry na to. Basta, ayoko na mag-elaborate, ako na lang makakaintindi nun.

Mga kanta

Eto yung top 5 songs (as of the moment) na pag napapakinggan ko ay napapabuntunghininga at nalulungkot pero gustung-gusto ko pinapakinggan kasi ang ganda...

1. Alaala - True Faith

Sa pagsapit ng dilim
Ang buwan at mga bituin
Sa pagpukaw sa umaga
Sinag ng araw ay kakaiba

Bakit nga ba ikaw
Ang nasa aking alaala
Alaala

Habang lahat ay nalunod na
Sa alak at sa katatawa
Binili na ang lahat ng luho
Upang utak ko'y mapalayo

2. Lihim - Orange and Lemons

Di na malilimutan pa
Sa bawat sandaling ako'y iyong hagkan
Ang iyong mga halik

Sana'y wag ng matapos pa
Aking nadarama sa tuwing kapiling ka
Ako'y nasasabik

Sayo lamang ilalaan ang isang
Ligayang walang hanggan
Kahit pa nagsasalo tayo
Sa isang kasalanan

Bihag tayo ng panahon
At pagkakataong puno ng pangambang
Ika'y mawalay pa

Di na mahalaga
Ang sasabihin nila
Basta't may pag-ibig
Sa 'ting dalawa

Sayo lamang ilalaan ang isang pagsuyong walang hanggan
Kahit na nagsasama tayo sa isang kasalanan, kasalanan

3. Back To You - John Mayer

Back to you
It always comes around
Back to you
I tried to forget you
I tried to stay away
But it's too late

Over you
I'm never over
Over you
Something about you
It's just the way you move
The way you move me

I'm so good at forgetting
And I quit ever game I play
But forgive me, love
I can't turn and walk away

Back to you
It always comes around
Back to you
I walk with your shadow
I'm sleeping in my bed
With your silhouette

should have smiled in that picture
If it's the last that I'll see of you
It's the least that you
Could not do

Leave the light on
I'll never give up on you
Leave the light on
For me too

Back to me
I know that it comes
Back to me
Doesn't it scare you
Your will is not as strong
As it used to be

4. Burnout - Sugarfree

O, wag kang tumingin ng ganyan sa akin
'Wag mo akong kulitin, 'wag mo akong tanungin
Dahil katulad mo, ako rin ay nagbago
'Di na tayo tulad ng dati, kay bilis ng sandali

O, kay tagal din kitang minahal
Kung iisipin mo, 'di naman dati ganito
Teka muna, teka lang, kelan tayo nailang?
Kung iisipin mo, 'di naman dati ganito
Kay bilis kasi ng buhay, pati tayo natangay

Tinatawag kita, sinusuyo kita
'Di mo man marinig, 'di mo man madama
O, kay tagal din kitang mamahalin

5. She is My Cain - Wolfgang

She is my drug
she is my vein
she is my life
she is my pain
she is my wheat
she is my grain

I can abstain
though I know it's so plain
she is my cain

upon the night
i see her eyes
her tears are my skies
her heart beats my life

I can't refrain though
I know it's so plain
she is my cain

she is my night
she is my day
she is my sun
she is my rain

I can't complain
cause I know
she's my bane
she is my bane

Warasleep

Natulog ako kahapon ng 3 pm, nagising ako 3 am, kamusta naman. Ito na ata ang pinakamahabang tulog ko for this sem. Hindi pala okay sa akin ang gin, hindi siya tinanggap nang mabuti ng sikmura ko. Nung uminom kami nung Friday, ang aga ko nalasing, pero na-realize ko na ganun talaga ko when it comes to certain types of drinks. Pero yun ang pinakamalala kasi ang sama talaga ng epekto niya sa akin parang gusto ko na ilabas lahat ng laman ng tiyan ko. Pagkagising ko sa umaga sobrang sakit ng ulo at may reporting pa kami maya maya lang, tapos nung pabalik ako sa skul kumain ako ng agahan sa Jollibee Pantranco kasi sobrang gutom na talaga ako. But no! Habang kumakain ako, parang nasusuka ko ulit kaya hayun, hindi ko naubos yung pagkain. Conclusion: hindi na ako ulit iinom ng gin.

Anyhoo, wala na akong maisulat kaya magsasagot na lang ako ng survey:

What was the last foodfood that you ate?
- Bistek at kanin

Who was the last person you went out with?
- nung friday may sepkember kasama kemers

Kelan ka last nag-cry?
- last last week ata

What was the last thing that you said before answering this?
- Ewan, kahapon pa ako huling nagsalita e, wala naman akong kausap kasi madaling araw pa

Kelan ka last nag-attend ng b-day party?
- matagal na, at hindi ko na rin maalala kung kelan

Who was the last person you talked to on the fone?
- Yung taong winarla ko sa F3 dahil sa gradpic

Kelan ka last nag-in0m ng alak?
- Last Friday night/Saturday morning

When did you last brush your teeth?
- kahapon bago pumunta skul

When did you last take a bath?
- kahapon din, bago pumasok

Sino last person na na-miss m0?
hmmm... hindi ko maisip

Sino last mo nakaaway?
- Yung sa F3

Saan ka last tumambay?
- sa tambayan

Last person you texted?
- uncle ko

When was the last time you smiled?
-kahapon siguro

Kelan mo last hinawakan fone m0?
- 10 seconds ago.

When was the last time you sm0ked?
- nung huling inuman

Ang last tv show pinanuod m0?
- encantadia ata

What was the last movie that you watched?
- sa sine ba? d' anothers, and I must say, wala talagang sense

When was the last time you ate at mcd0?
- hindi ko maalala exact date, basta kasama ko nun si erma, allan, anne at RJ

Last thing na ginawa mo before answering this?
- read LJ ng hs friends ko

What are you loooking forward for tomorrow?
- bday sana ni celine pero baka hindi ako mkapunta kasi super tambak skulwork ngayon

Ang iksi lang pala niya.

Biotechnology

I'm so friggin' distracted right now. I've been trying to summarize our reading in STS so that i could come up with a decent script for our video project. But I've been in front of the computer for about three hours now and I haven't even reached half of the article. This is so frustrating.

I tried to turn on the music hoping that it'll help me concentrate on understanding biotechnological developments in agriculture, but lo! As soon as the first note of "She will be loved" came on, my mind went into a total blank. I can't understand a single sentence on this stupid piece of paper on my lap. And I remembered that the reason that I don't listen to music when I study is because I become so immersed in the rhythm and the words in each stanza and my mind floats away into whatever my imagination makes of the poetry that is embedded in each song. Most of the time, I get depressed and fall into a trance and off I go into an oblivion of longing... Wishing... Wanting all my problems to fade away. I'm beginning to feel very helpless. Why do they all have to come all at once? Can I request fate to reschedule them for the next month or at least next week maybe? Just not now, not tomorrow...

Hanggang Kailan

Kanina pinabili ako ni mama ng pacifier ni Alex sa SM, yung pigeon lang kasi ang gusto niya e at sa SM lang meron. Pagtungtong ko sa third floor ng department store, at nang mapaligiran na ako ng mga bagay na pambata, hindi ko na talaga mapigilang umiyak, tumutulo na sila at wala na akong magawa. Kukunin na kasi si Alex ng legal mother niya na nasa New Zealand this coming Sunday.

Mahigit isang taon din namin siyang inalagaan, at sa haba ng panahong yon paano ba namang hindi siya mapapamahal nang husto sa amin. Para siyang manyika na may sariling isip, marunong tumawa, umiyak, mangulit at manlambing. Minsan nakakainis sa sobrang kaingayan at kalikutan, pero mas madalas naman na nakakatuwa kasi kapag ngumiti na siya parang lahat na ng inis, pagod at sakit ng ulo mo mapapawi, lam niyo yun, yung tipong ngiti na pati ikaw mahahawa, sobrang inosente, sobrang totoo. Tuwing umuuwi ako, siya una kong hinahanap tapos nun maglalaro na kami, aawayin niya ako sa umpisa kasi mas gusto niya kay Ate Vilma o kaya kay Mama, pero maya-maya bati na kami tapos magtataguan na kami o maghahabulan na sa bahay. Kapag naman nag-aaral na ako o nagco-computer, ayan na, sisiksik siksik kasi gustong makihampas sa keyboard o kaya naman makipihit ng mga pahina ng mga libro ko. Minsan nakakasakit talaga ng ulo kasi hindi ako makagawa ng matino, pero kapag tinaboy mo naman iiyakan ka. Pano naman yun, e di natunaw naman ang puso ko, kaya sige, bahala na, hinahayaan ko na lang siyang gawin yung gusto niya, bunso-bunsoan e. Pakiramdam ko din naging mas malapit kami ng mga kapamilya ko sa isa't isa nung dumating siya kasi napapadalas na din ang mga kwentuhan namin dahil sa kanya, dahil madalas siyang maging paksa ng mga diskusyunan namin. At pag nagkakaroon ng alitan siya rin ang peace maker kasi siya ang common topic na gustung-gusto naming pinag-uusapan lahat.

Pero ngayon, kulang sa dalawang araw na lang siya dito. Iiwan niya na kami. Wala na yung maliit na batang paikot-ikot sa bahay, hindi ko na maririnig yung malilit niyang hakbang. Wala nang mang-aaway sa akin pag kunwari ay inaagaw ko mama ko. Wala na yung bigla na lang iiyak kasi bagong gising at lahat ay matataranta kasi wala pang nakatimplang gatas. Ayan, sumasakit na nang husto ang kalooban ko sa pagsulat nito, kasi habang humaba to lalo kong nararamdaman na totoo na talagang mawawala na siya sa amin. Ganito naman kasi ang usapan mula pa sa umpisa, pero gayunpaman pakiramdam ko pa rin ay biglaan ang lahat ng mga pangyayari kahit dapat ay hindi naman at dapat ay handa na kami matagal na. Siguro idagdag mo pa sa kinasasama sa loob ko ang katotohanang sa susunod na pagkikita namin ay hindi na siya talagang amin kundi sa iba na talaga, at malamang ay hindi man niya matatandaan ang mga masasayang alaala na iniwan niya dito sa bahay. Ang sakit pala talagang mahiwalay sa isang minamahal. Parang gusto mo siyang makasama palagi sa kakaunting panahon na magkasama kayo pero ganun pa rin naman ang mangyayari, parang normal lang naman, pero pag naiisip mong mawawala na siya kahit kasama mo pa malulungkot ka pa rin. Pag masaya siya masakit rin kasi alam mo sandali na lang ay hindi mo na makikita ang masaya niyang mukha, pero syempre ayaw mo rin naman na malungkot siya kaya pati ikaw ay magsasaya-sayahan na din. Ang hirap, parang dinudurog ang puso ko. Kanina pa ako iyak ng iyak e. Hindi ko na nga alam kung papano ko itatago ang pagmumukha ko habang namamasahe mula SM hanggang dito sa bahay, aba ang layo din nun a. Pero ayun, wala na lang pakialamanan. Pag pinipigil ko naman kasi luha ko lumalabas din siya sa ilong kaya ganun din, mas masagwa pa ang itsura. Pag-uwi ko naman sa bahay, tinanong pa ng nanay ko kung bakit ako umiyak, hindi na ako nakasagot at humagulgol na lang ako habang buhay. Ayun, nahawa na yung nanay ko,umiyak na din tuloy, pano ba naman parang tunay na anak na talaga ang turing niya kay alex. Sabi niya nga sa akin minsan "Pag lumaki siya at nalaman niya ang totoo ,sabihin niyo na lang na kahit hindi niyo siya tunay na kapatid, kahit na hindi natin siya kadugo ang tunay naman ay ang pagmamahal natin sa kanya", ang drama noh? Natameme nga ako nung sinabi yun ni Mama sa akin e. Sana naman kahit na bakasyon makabalik din agad siya sa Pilipinas. Ibang iba na talaga ang alog ng bahay pag-alis niya. Mamimiss talaga namin yun.

tulog na muna

Hindi ko na kelangan mag-alarm bukas. Hindi ko maintindihan kung matutuwa ba ako o hindi...

Nakakaflip

I'm already getting a taste of vacation at ang masasabi ko lang ay... NAKAKAFLIP TALAGA!!! Nakakapanibago yung mula sa napakaraming iniisip at ginagawa ay biglang mabablangko ang academic schedule mo. Kahit na meron din naman akong mga gagawin, kakaiba lang talaga na nagagawa ko nang matulog nang matagal at makapagpahinga ng mabuti. Pero ang sakit sa ulo ng isip ka ng isip ng gagawin at maiisip mo na wala ka namang dapat gawin, gayunpaman, isip ka pa rin ng isip, lam nyo yun? Kaya sana talaga matanggap na kami dun sa inaaplayan naming OJT para hindi sayang ang summertime.

Nag-interview kami ni Erma sa Unilab nung Friday at ang weird kasi napakabilis lang talaga, labinlimang minuto lang ang tinagal niya para sa akin at ganun din kay Erma kaya hindi ko alam kung ano ba yun, parang kalokohan.

Magsusulat pa sana ako kaso...tinatamad na ako!!! wahaha!!!

survey survey

1 ANO'NG STUDENT NUMBER MO?
2001-12395

2 NAKAPASA KA BA OR WAITLISTED?
Pasado, 1st choice, astig!

3 PAANO MO NALAMAN ANG ENTRANCE EXAM RESULT?
Through the sister of my dorm mate. Heavy ‘to man, lahat sila nagkukumpulan sa isang sulok sa 3rd floor ng girls’ residence hall main kasi kausap ng dorm mate ko yung sis niya na nasa up at the time, looking at the list. At ako’y nakaupo sa sarili kong sulok sa kwarto namin kasi ayokong makarinig ang “Hindi niya mahanap pangalan mo e.” Sa kabutihang palad, may nagmagandang loob na nagtanong para sa akin nang hindi ko nalalaman. Nagulat na lang ako nang pumasok siya sa kwarto namin at sinabi “UP Diliman ka daw, Engineering” at napabuntung-hininga na lang ako ng malakas. Para talaga akong nabunutan ng espada nung mga panahong yun. Me papasukan na ako para sa kolehiyo, ang saya.

4 FIRST CHOICE MO BA ANG UP?
Sa totoo lang, hehe, gusto ko talagang mag-ateneo nun e kaso financial constraints held me back, pero ngayon feeling ko mas masaya talaga sa UP.

5 ALAM MO BA ANG UPG SCORE MO?
hinde.

6 ANO SA TINGIN MO?
100!!! Wahaha, walang pakialamanan.

7 ANO ANG FIRST CHOICE MO NA COURSE?
Chem Engg talaga.

8 SECOND CHOICE?
--Chem.(Yak, ano ba meron sa chem.? Na-flip ata ko nun e)

9 ANO COURSE MO NGAYON?
ChE pa rin, at napapagod na ako

10 MAY PLANO KA MAG-SHIFT?
Hindi ko plinano kasi ibig sabihin balak kong gawin, ginusto ko lang mag-shift dati pero medyo matayog na pangarap kasi malayong kurso ang gusto ko

11 CHINITO/CHINITA KA BA?
wow, special treatment ba sa kanila? Hindi e, morena ang beauty ko.:P

12 NAKAPAG-DORM KA NA BA?
oo, nung high school.

13 NAKA UNO KA NA BA?
oo

14 NAGKA-3?
oo

15 HIGHEST GRADE:
sa physics lab ata, as in yung average, generous teacher namin e, astig pa yun, nanlibre ng bowling sa SM, nilibre niya yung isang class at naki-epal ako,wahehe

16 LOWEST:
singko!!!! Sa ES 12!!!

17 WORST EXPERIENCE SA UP:
nung panahong feel na feel kong babagsak ako sa dose pero tinatamad ako mag-exert ng effort. Inuusig pa ako ng mga tao sa bahay kasi nga delikado ako pero mas inuuna ko pa ang org, at dahil dun, lalo akong tinamad. Ayun, bumagsak naman…

18 LAGI KA BANG PUMAPASOK SA KLASE?
oo, mabait naman akong estudyante e, hindi lang kasing sipag mag-aral ng iba

19 ANO'NG ORG MO?
UP KEM

20 MAY SCHOLARSHIP KA BA?
yup, DOST

21 ILANG UNITS NA ANG NAIPASA MO?
hindi ko iniisip yan e.

22 NANGANGARAP KA BA NA MAG-CUM LAUDE?
hinde kahit kelan, hindi rin kasi ako ka-GC-han, basta walang bagsak keri

23 KELAN KA MAGTATAPOS?
next year, hopefully april

24 FAVE PROF:
Sir Melo, Sir Nato, Maam De Leon, Sir Paulino

25 WORST TEACHER:
Orillos!!! Kas 1!!! Tanginerds, sana lamunin na siya ng lupa!!! Saka pala yung teacher ko sa Math 53, mukhang lion buhok niya, mamatay na siya!!!

26 FAVE SUBJECTs:
Masaya yung hum 1 this sem, though I didn’t get as high a grade as I wanted, pero masaya, daming matututunan

27 WORST SUBJECTs:
CE 22!!! Hindi ko siya talaga ma-appreciate. At saka Math 53

28 FAVE LANDMARK SA UP:
oblation pa din

29 BUILDING:
Syempre engg, second home ko to e, as in mas matagal pa ata ako sa engg kesa sa bahay .

30 PABORITONG KAINAN:
Basta sa SC.

31 Noong ESTUDYANTE KA PA MAGKANO BA ANG BINABAYAD MO SA JEEP?
nung sa up na ako nag-aaral, ang naabutan ko ay yung kwatro

32 LAGI KA BA SA LIB?
mej, sa engg lib, lalo na pag kasagsagan ng exams.

33 NAGPUNTA KA BA SA CLINIC NUNG MINSANG NAGKASAKIT KA?
huh, clinic? Meron ba? Hehe, hinde, nung isang beses nagpunta ko para kumuha ng excuse slip dahil isang lingo akong absent at dami talaga akong na-miss, yun lang

34 MAY CRUSH KA BA SA CAMPUS?
walang panahon

35 BF/GF?
wala

36 MAY BALAK KA BA MAG-MASTERS O MAG-PHD?
Pucha, ayoko na mag-aral after pumasa sa board exam!!! Pero ang hirap magsalita ng tapos kaya I don’t want to keep the doors closed

37 ANU-ANO ANG MGA NAGING PE MO?
Badminton(hehe, drinop ko to, walang kwenta teacher e), taekwondo, arnis, self-defense, bowling

38 KAMUSTA NAMAN ANG BLOCK NYO?
Hindi masyado close, pero karamihan naman sa mga kabarkada ko ngayon ay blockies ko din.

39 NAKAPANOOD KA NA BA NG GRADUATION SA UP?
nope

40 MEMORIZE MO BA ANG ALMA MATER SONG?
UP naaaaaminnnnng mahaaal....*watermelon bubblegum*<-- hehe, panalo talaga si kurt! Pero gusto ko siya mamemorize one of these days.

41 MEMBER KA BA NG UP VARSITY TEAM?
sorry, overqualified. Wahahaha!!!!!!.

42 SINO ANG PABORITO MONG UAAP BASKETBALL PLAYER?
hindi ko sila kilala, si cruz lang, so siya na.

43 NAKA-PERFECT KA NA BA NG EXAM?
hindi ko maisip, siguro, siguro hindi

44 ANO'NG AYAW MO SA FINALS WEEK?
dwah! syempre final exams.

45 DITO KA BA NATUTONG UMINOM NG BEER?
hindi, BI tatay ko e, pinapainom kami bata pa lang

46 ANO'NG GUSTO MO SA UP?
walang pakialamanan, do whatever you want, suffer the consequences later

47 ANO'NG AYAW MO?
madaming nagaganap na krimen

48 BUMILI KA NA BA SA SHOP SA SPORTS COMPLEX?
meron pala nun, sensya, was not informed

49 MAGANDA BA ID PIC MO?
Oo naman!!! Ako pa! wahaha!

50 MAY GINAWA KA NA BANG ILLEGAL SA LOOB NG CAMPUS?
Ano ba ang illegal sa UP?

Time in a Bottle

Nakanood ako ulit kanina ng american idol, tagal ko nang hindi nakakanood e, na-break kasi yung pagsubaybay ko dahil dami ginagawa at tinamad na akong mag-antabay palagi. In fairness, madaming magaling talaga at nag-enjoy ako sa theme nila, billboard chart toppers. At napakinggan ko ulit ang Time In a Bottle, medyo may panahon kasi nung high school when I got so fixated on Jim Croce songs, lalo na yung Photographs and Memories, ganda kasi ng tabs niya, nainlab talaga ako sa rhythm at maganda din talaga yung lyrics.


Lately I've been eating so much pizza, ang weird talaga kasi bago nun parang gustung gusto kong kumain nun tapos sabay biglang lagi akong nakakain ng libre. Last week kasi madaming apps ang nagdala ng greenwich for their interview. Then yesterday we went to an FOPC chuva meeting at kumain ako ng three slices of pizza kasi gutom talaga ako. Tapos kanina naman nagpadeliver tatay ko ng pizza kasi bday niya. Sarap!

Hehe, bday ni papa today... ay, tapos na pala kasi it's past twelve na. Last year, disaster yung birthday ng tatay ko dahil sa akin. Basta, to make the long story short, we had a major fight, as in major, pangtele-novela sa drama, sigawan to the max with matching sinumpa ako ng tatay ko at ako naman ay sumasagot pa rin dahil pareho nang kasing init ng blue flame sa kalan ang mga ulo namin. Buti na lang hindi niya ako pinalayas. Napaiyak ko ang tatay ko, at nun ko lang siya nakitang umiyak sa buong buhay ko. Ang gago ko talaga, pero may dahilan naman yun. Pero masyado ata akong naging harsh kasi bday niya nun. Buti na lang at hindi pa naman lumipad pataas sa himpapawid ang pride ko kaya nag-sorry ako sa tatay ko through text the next day, hindi niya nga binura ever yung text ko e (but no, nanakaw yung phone niya). Ayun.

Nagyayaya mga high school berks ko na mag-beach sa summer. but no! Ang mahal ng plano nila, aabot siya ng 1500 at overnight lang yun, wala pang food. Hay, nalungkot ako at hindi ata ako makakasama kasi hindi ako pwedeng maging magastos masyado. Nakakainis kasi naka-oo na ako as in dati pa, kaso may mga bagong dapat pagkagastusan kaya I'll have to pass...again. Sayang, grad gimik kasi nila yun and I really wanna go, kaso can't afford talaga ako.

Haggard tong week na nakaraan, kakatapos ko nga lang ng isang exam kanina e. Pero all that's over na, next week na ulet, time to rest. Ranting will only drain my energy more kaya...magsasagot na lang ako ng survey!!! yehey!!


Name a band/musical artist for every letter of your name:
M - Mojofly
A - Alicia Keys
I - Incubus
T - True Faith
A - Aerosmith

what color are the pants that you are wearing? hindi pants, black na shorts
what song are you listening to right now? all i have- j lo
what taste is in your mouth? pizza!!!
what's the weather like now? maenet
how are you? medyo relaxed pero feel pa rin ang pagod
getting motion sickness? no
have a bad habit? worrying
like to drive? gustung gusto ko na talaga, i swear

f a v o r i t e s

tv show: gilmore girls, will and grace
conditioner: pantene
book: sa ngayon, god of small things, arundhati roy
non alcoholic drink: water
alcoholic drink: red horse, ito ang tama!

been in love: hmmm...pag-iisipan natin yan
had a hard time getting over someone: oo, pramis
been hurt: oo naman, ano ako, bato?
your greatest regret: wala akong maisip sa ngayon, nag-eenjoy naman ako sa buhay ko e
gone out with someone you only knew for 3 days: no

r a n d o m
do you have a job: none
your cd player has in it right now: cd, hehe
if you were a crayon what color would you be: white
what makes you happy: friends, travel, si alex, family, good food, good music, great tv shows, dami e, babaw lang naman kaligayahan ko e

w h e n / w h a t w a s t h e l a s t

time you cried: the other night ata, tinotopak ako e
you got a real letter: wala naman nagbibigay sa akin e, hehe
you got e-mail: kani-kanina lang
thing you purchased: chocolate
movie you saw in the theater: hehe, ang olats, the incredibles pa ata yung huli

y o u r t h o u g h t s o n

abortion: ayoko siya, dalhin niya na lang sa orphanage kung hindi niya talaga kayang buhayin
teenage smoking: hehe, pero ayoko naman talaga siya for other kids
spice girls: wala lang, fun sila nung una pero hindi talaga sila marunong kumanta
dreams: minsan oki, minsan hindi

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Four Vacations You've Taken:
1. Baguio
2. Cebu
3. Misamis Occidental
4. La Union

Four songs that get stuck in your head recently:
1. Fallin- Janno Gibbs
2. I wanna know-joe
3. suntok sa buwan- session road
4. boomshiboomshiboomboomboom

Four Things You'd Like To Learn:
1. drive!!!!
2. foreign language
3. painting na parang pro
4. html para maayos ko tong blog ko

Four Beverages You Drink Frequently
1. water
2. coke
3. iced tea
4. kape

Four TV Shows That Were On When You Were A Kid
1. Boy Meets World
2. Voltes V
3. Bioman
4. Sesame Street

Four Things To Do When You're Bored:
1. TV
2. read
3. clean my room
4. eat

Four things that never fail to cheer you up:
1. gimik
2. chocolates
3. travel
4. tsismisan with friends

Pramis, aayusin ko blog ko this summer.


***if I could save time in a bottle....the first thing that I'd like to do...is to save it every day 'til eternity passes away, just to spend them with you. if I could make days last forever....if words could make wishes come true.....I'd save every day like a treasure and then, again I would spend them with you***- Jim Croce