Haba nito

March 4, 2005:

I got home at a little past ten, nag-mini stop pa kasi kami ni Erma e, super gutom na kasi ako, hindi kasi ako nakagapag-dinner before our exam. I did bad in the test, I wasn’t able to study well because I was very busy preparing some things for the elections in KEM tapos the night before the exam, Mama asked me to go to my sister’s place to pick up something. Kaso masyado akong naengganyong maglibot kasi sa Eastwood yung condo ni Ate kaya late na ako nakauwi at pagdating ko sa bahay ay pagod na talaga ako. Ayun, palpak talaga yung exam.

March 5, 2005:

Hay salamat at nakapagpahinga na akong muli. Kagabi natulog ako at around eleven tapos nagising ako ng mga 6 at nagbasa-basa ng nobela at natulog ulit ng mga seven. Ginising ako ni Mama ng nine kasi kelangan na bayaran yung insurance at tubig so I got up, naligo at humayo na. Dumaan din ako kanina sandali sa skul para makiusyoso total dadaan din naman ako ng katips. Tapos umuwi na ako at natulog ulit for three more hours, sarap!

Namimiss ko na high school friends ko. They’ve been constantly asking me to have lunch or dinner with them kaso I’m just too busy for now. Dalawa pa kasi exam ko nitong nakaraang week kaya haggaran talaga. Gusto ko nang makipagtsismisan tungkol sa latest sa mga minamahal kong batchmates sa Pisay. Nagyayaya nga silang pumuntang skul e para sa Pisay fair, tutugtog din kasi yung Deltajoy. But no! The ticket for the concert na gaganapin costs 150! Hindi na lang, said na talaga ang bulsa ko e, tipid to the max ako ngayon. Ang olats olats ko nga e, ang tagal ko na talagang hindi nakakapag-mall, ni hindi ko man lang mapapalitan yung lens nung salamin ko, hirap na hirap tuloy ako pag nagkaklase. Hay, Dr. Ester Ogena ng DOST nagsusumamo ako sa iyo, bigay mo na yung reimbursement ko. Makapunta ngang DLRC next week para mangulet.

March 9, 2005

Nagpunta ako sa Albert Hall kanina para suportahan yung friends ko sa thesis defense nila. Though I didn’t understand any of their topics, kasi parang hard core genetics na siya, natuwa pa rin ako kasi parang todo na-apply nila ang mga natutunan nila at mukhang may sense talaga yung mga research nila, about vaccines, epitopes, malaria, at pagpatay ng mga daga. Parang napupunta talaga ako sa ibang dimension kapag sila kasama ko, kumpara kasi sa mga tao sa Engg parang super tamed (excuse the term) ng mga tao sa Albert, parang hindi sila taga-UP, ang behave nila. Pero I still have an equally great time pag kasama ko ang HS friends ko. They have just the right dose of superficiality that kind of what makes them different from my other friends, may pagka-konyotic na hindi kasi yung mga yun e, konyotic pero ang lupet uminom at magmura. Pero ang galing talaga nila, alam na alam nila whenever something’s bothering me, as in tatawag sila or text ng pangangamusta o yayaya sa labas tapos yun, kayang kaya nila akong paiyakin kasi ilalabas ko na lahat ng sama ng loob ko. Alam na alam nilang isang bote lang ng red horse ang katapat for me to spill my guts out, umiiyak habang tumatawa, palibahasa lasing, pero hindi ako masyadong naaapektuhan ng hard drinks. Tapos kapag bigla akong pumupunta sa Albert, they’ll pause what they’re doing para kulitin ko sila. Mayroon kasing mga bagay na hindi ko masabi sa mga Engg friends ko na sa kanila ko lang nasasabi and vice versa kaya kelangan ko talaga sila pareho sa buhay ko. Kaso, unlike my Engg friends mejo protected talaga sila kaya mas spontaneous ang mga kaibigan ko sa Engg. Pero either way, I love all of my friends and they are the ones who help keep my sanity intact.

Bumalik na ako ng Engg nung maglu-lunch na sila, ayoko sumama dun sa mga yun, pag sila ang kasama ko kumain napapagastos talaga ako ng malupet e.

Ayun, tapos na eleksyon, mixed emotions ang nararamdaman ko, excited, natatakot, overwhelmed. Na-drain talaga ako nung campaign period and even before nun kasi kalaban ko yung kabarkada ko at na-feel ko talaga na may tension sa pagitan namin tuwing election issues ang pag-uusapan. Sobrang umiyak ako nung nalaman kong tatakbo pala siya, hindi lang isang beses, kaya emotional rollercoaster talaga ever nung preparations, e mejo sensitive talaga ako pag friendship issues e, as in to the highest level. Pero nairaos na din naman. Sayang lang at hindi ko makakasama sa pagiging EC yung iba kong kaibigan kahit na alam kong kayang kaya din naman nila ang trabaho, pero hindi ko naman kasi desisyon yun. Alam ko malaking responsibilidad ang aakuin ko pero aware naman ako dun mula pa nung una kong mapagdesisyunang tumakbo. Alam ko na kapag nagsimula na ang term namin ay tuluy-tuloy na trabaho ito and there’s no room to slack off. Kelangan mabalance ng mabuti ang oras, pera at atensyon, pordat, bibili na ako ng matinong planner. Pero ang pinaka-concern ko talaga ay ang gastos kasi hindi napupulot ang pera. Well, come to think of it… when we start working... it IS a never ending gastos... Never ending pagtatabi ng pera... pang events, panplano, pangkain, pang gimik (hehe, sabay ganun)... pero the rewards naman are priceless: happiness and fulfillment, the feeling of completeness and joy is actually more important than that popular concept of 'ginhawa'... I find a moment of laughter, of joy in gaining new friends, of happiness in knowing that you’ll be able to help to the best of your ability- despite the monotony of work and sacrifices - more rewarding than having comfort.. Siyempre when we look at it, the task ahead of us is daunting…pero come to think of it, what big responsibility isn’t daba? I’ll just have to work hard to do my best like what I’ve really planned from the start. Salamat sa lahat ng nagtiwala! :)

Rated X

put an 'X' next to what u have accomplished

(x) snuck out of the house
( ) gotten lost in your city
(x) seen a shooting star
(x) been to any other countries besides the united states
(x) had a serious surgery *hindi naman life-threatening, pero umabot siya ng about 20 stitches*
(x) gone out in public in your pajamas
( ) kissed a stranger
( ) hugged a stranger
( ) been in a fist fight
( ) been arrested
( ) done drugs
(x) Had alcohol
(x) laughed and had milk/coke come out of your nose
( ) pushed all the buttons on an elevator
( ) swore at your parents
( ) been in love
(x) been close to love
( ) been to a casino
( ) been skydiving
( ) broken a bone
( ) been high
( ) skinny-dipped
(x) skipped school
( ) flashed someone
( ) saw a therapist
(x) played spin the bottle
(x) gotten stitches
( ) drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour
(x) bitten someone
( ) been to Niagara Falls
(x) gotten the chicken pox
( ) kissed a member of the opposite sex
( ) kissed a member of the same sex
( ) crashed into a friend's car
(x) been to Japan
(x) ridden in a taxi
( ) been dumped
(x) shoplifted *unintentionally naman*
( ) been fired
(x) had a crush on someone of the same sex
(x) had feelings for someone who didnt have them back
( ) stolen something from your job
( ) gone on a blind date
(x) lied to a friend
(x) had a crush on a teacher
( ) celebrated mardi-gras in new orleans
( ) been to Europe
( ) slept with a co-worker
( ) been married
( ) gotten divorced
( ) had children
( ) seen someone die
( ) had a close friend die
( ) been to Africa
( ) Driven over 400 miles in one day
( ) Been to Canada
( ) Been to Mexico
(x) Been on a plane
( ) Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show
( ) Thrown up in a bar
( ) Purposely set a part of myself on fire
(x) Eaten Sushi
( ) Been snowboarding
( ) Met someone in person from the internet
( ) lost a child
(x) gone to college
( ) graduated college (almost...)
( ) done hard drugs
( ) tried killing yourself
( ) fired a gun
(x) purposely hurt yourself
(x) taken painkillers
(x) love someone or miss someone right now..

Mejo I feel numb right now. Walang pakialamanan. Kelangan ko pa i-organize thoughts ko kaya survey na lang muna.:)

Affection

hug from behind - you like to feel what the other
person is feeling and see things how they see
them. you tend to be serious and emotional.


What Sign of Affection Are You?
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Morpheus


?? Which Of The Greek Gods Are You ??
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Color of my heart

Your Heart is Blue


What Color is Your Heart?
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Ano ba naman yun, wrong spelling pa. Pero naalala ko, once upon a time sinabi ko kay shal yung last line nito e, lagi kasi inlab si shally, lalo na dati, e ngayon kaya? hmmm...

Wadahek

Wadahek. Naguguluhan na naman ang utak ko. Feeling ko ang dami kong gagawin pero hindi naman talaga. I'm stressing over nothing and thinking that I'm stressing over nothing stresses me even more.

Pero syempre kahit na feeling stressed ako, kanina, pagkagaling namin ng mga kaibigan ko sa cubao, natulog lang ako mula 2:30 to 6 at pagkagising ko ay nanood pa ako ng movie tuloy nood ng gilmore girls. Syet, procrastination sucks.

The movie I watched was fairly good. It was about what's really important in life, you know those kind of movies. It makes you feel really bad during the course of the show, bida has a very abundant life but some life turning event happens and he experiences the lowest point of his life. Then he meets someone who'll teach him life lessons which, in turn, will make him realize that it doesn't matter how much money he has but how much love he has gained in his life. Whatever. It's such a depressing shit. And I'm a real shithead for being affected. And made me realize how much of a masochist I truly am. I always say things that I really don't mean and know that I'll only get hurt by doing so. I'm always so hard on myself. Nakakainis, feeling ko kasi kapag meron kang nararamdaman na masama dapat lalo mo pang saktan ang sarili mo kasi in the end you'll feel better...or just plain numb. Para bang sugat na naimpeksyon na dapat mong putukin kahit masakit para lumabas lahat ng nana, pag wala nang nana, gagaling na daba? Hay, bwiset.

Ijo-jog ko na lang to. Nakakaadik magjog.

*Don't push too far, limitations scar*- Natalie Imbruglia

Wala lang, naisip ko lang, these are the songs that really overwhelm me, tipong biglang nag-iiba yung mood ko pag naririnig ko sila:

1.Don’t Dream It’s Over- Crowded House
2.Alaala- True Faith
3.Back to You- John Meyer
4.Kiss from a Rose- Seal
5.Buloy-Parokya ni Edgar
6.Beauty on fire-Natalie Imbruglia
7.Somewhere in Time
8.Moon River
9.Africa-Toto
10.The Scientist-Coldplay


Haaaaay...

relax

Wow, at last i had a peaceful and sound 12-hr sleep after a week of staying up late to study for two exams and to do my paper.

Yesterday, I cleaned up my room since the floor was full of clutter and there was barely any space left to walk on. Mama also gave us a new rack for our clothes so I spent most of the day rearranging my room and organizing our clothes, shoes, and bags. After fixing everything up, I was very pleased, I realized that we had so much stuff, especially shoes. I dozed off after cleaning up and it felt so nice to finally sleep in a tidy room and on a bed that had very clean sheets.

Last Friday, I watched Mutya ng NIP with some of my high school friends after an excruciating ChE 123 exam. When I entered the building, it felt rather unusual , I expected a lot of people to be running about and preparing and stuff. But instead, it was quiet, as if it was just an ordinary day. When I went into the room of the program, I was a bit surprised because it was very...should I say "intimate"? It was a very small scale version of Ms. Engg. There were only five contestants from the different laboratories, and their preparation was really....hmmm...humble compared to that of engineering orgs. Oh well, what can I expect, their population was very small compared to our college and the event only involved one department. Anyway, I just enjoyed the show. The question and answer portion was very entertaining, the judges were asking very absurd questions like "Bakit mabuti ang may buhok sa kilikili?" and "Ano gagawin mo kapag meron ka at nag-cause ito ng matinding pamumuo ng dugo o blood clot?". The contestants were so witty and funny, especially pocahontas who, when asked what she/he would do as a princess in case a tsunami hit her kingdom answered, "Kasi naman, pag may tsunami ay wala ka na talagang magagawa, kaya ako, tatakbo na lang ako!" with matching actions pa!. Though she/he was the most unfortunate-looking among the contestants, her charm, wit and promiscuity won her/him the title.

After the program we went to katips to have dinner. We were supposed to eat in an Asian resto but it was closing when we arrived, so we just settled for Shakey's. I was really disappointed coz I realized that the resto we passed on was Tajma, the one featured in F and it supposedly had a moroccan smoke, something like a cigarette but actually wasn't. I think was called huka or something that sounded like that. Anyway, we had a great time like we always do whenever we go out, reminiscing, talking about the latest in each other's lives and laughing our hearts out.

I was supposed to hitch a ride home with my friend. But we finished at around a little past midnight, so I just decided to sleep at her house coz it was her parents who picked her up, not the driver, and it would be dyahe to ask them to bring me home that late. We stayed up until three just talking about...stuff, hehe. They dropped me off at my house the next morning.

Hmmm... I don't have a profound ending sentence so...wala lang, yun lang.

survey survey

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY
1. Maits
2. Maity Maits
3. Teng

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD
1. dimple_14
2. migraine_gurl
3. mango

THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF
1. disiplina sa sarili
2. not being afraid to go places kahit na mag-isa
3. my non-bopek voice

THREE THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF
1. my inability to take big risks
2. my pimples!
3. my lack of money, hehe

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU
1. ipis
2. multo
3. losing loved ones

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS
1. food
2. pera
3. a book to help me sleep

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW
1. t shirt ng bro ko
2. shorts ng bro ko
3. glasses

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS OR MUSICAL ARTISTS (at the moment)
1. coldplay
2. sugarfree
3. destiny's child

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS (at the moment)
1. the scientist
2. ano ba yun, yung kay pharell, yung puro percussion, hey mister ba yun o she's sexy
3. don't dream it's over, orig version

THREE NEW THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS
1. travel alone at malayo
2. get a part time job
3. mag-diet ng tunay

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP
1. yung tipong you can really count on each other whenever, wherever
2. lots of laughs
3. no secrets, no lies

TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE (in no particular order)
1. maaga ako magising
2. i love my course
3. i'm a romantic

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX (or same) THAT APPEAL TO YOU
1. height
2. shoulders
3. lips

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES
1. watching TV
2. strolling
3. reading

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW
1. travel papunta sa kung saan mang malayo
2. eat, gutom ako e
3. just friggin sleep!

THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING
1. chemical engineer (sana lang)
2. professional bum
3. taong grasa

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION
1. paris!!!
2. Sa province namin sa misamis
3. Cebu

THREE KID'S NAMES:
1. alexandra
2. margarita (para long version ng maita)
3. Dominique

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE
1. travel as much I can (afford)
2. fall in love
3. rule the world

THREE WAYS I AM STEREOTYPICALLY A GIRL
1. when I have time, my kikay regimen is really complicated
2. I love fixing my hair
3. Dressing up or shopping (kahit window lang) lifts me up

THREE WAYS I AM STEREOTYPICALLY A BOY
1. Mejo bossy ako sa bahay
2. hindi ko palagi kelangan ng kasama pag may gusto akong puntahan
3. Barubal ako manamit sa bahay

THREE CELEB CRUSHES
1. josh hartnett!
2. gael garcia
3. eric bana, pero sa troy lang

bangag

Hanlufet, ngayon pa talaga ako inatake ng migraine with matching sore throat. Kahapon nabinat ako kaya hindi ako nakaaral ng maayos para sa exam kaninang umaga. Me insomnia rin ata ako lately e, pag matutulog na ako feeling ko antok na antok na ako pero bumibilang ako ng oras bago makatulog tapos yung tulog ko yung tipong parang half-awake pa rin, ang panget, at ang OA sa aga ko pa magising. Kanina ngangumaaga nagising ako ng 4, que horror! Pumasok na lang ako ng maaga para mag-aral. Kanina rin maaga akong umuwi at natulog ako agad kasi parang mabibiyak na ang ulo ko. At eto ako ngayon, bangag pa rin. Haay, kelangan pa mag-aral para sa exam bukas, banas talaga.

TV

Wow, this is my third time to make a post today, though yung dalawa just came from online quizzes. I watched Indecent Proposal earlier and honestly, I was a bit disappointed coz it was not as indecent as I expected, hehe. Pinaunahan pa kasi ako ni ate e, sabi niya "Bold yan." So I waited for something really obscene to happen. Pero to my utter dismay, it just merely had some love scenes that weren't that scandalous and could have been better. Hehe, parang ang manyak tuloy ng tunog ko noh? Well, it's not my fault that it had such a suggestive title. I watched pa Passion of Mind, it had a very interesting and creepy plot. Demi had a rare case of MPD wherein you'll feel you're living two lives, parang when she sleeps in her other life, she wakes up in another entirely different but seems equally real life. So, in effect, it's as if she's awake 24/7. Astig nga e, what if wala kang gustong i-give-up na version ng buhay mo, baka masira na utak mo nun. Hindi ko lang siya natapos kasi may hinihintay ako kaya hindi ko nalaman kung alin yung totoo.

Anyway, enough of Demi Moore. After a few weeks of waiting in vain for a new episode of Gilmore Girls, sa wakas, hindi na replay yung kanina. It was partly about journalism, kaya nga na-inspire ako mag-update, though this a farcry from Rory's well thought of articles. Ayun, tapos back to work na, kelangan na ituloy ang paper na nakkaatamad talagang gawin.

Sige na nga...

Your Element Is Air

You dislike conflict, and you've been able to rise above the angst of the world. And when things don't go your way, you know they'll blow over quickly. Easygoing, you tend to find joy from the simple things in life. You roll with the punches, and as a result, your life is light and cheerful. You find it easy to adapt to most situations, and you're an open person. With you, what you see is what you get... and people love that!

What's Your Element?

Ano bang kanta ito? Parang mukha pang mga penguin yung mga singers. pero nakakatuwa din naman yung result.

1985 by Bowling for Soup

"Where's the mini-skirt made of snakeskin? And who's the other guy that's singing in Van Halen? When did reality become T.V.? What ever happened to sitcoms, game shows?" You took the bitter with the sweet in 2004 - and kept laughing.

What 2004 Hit Song Are You?

Suntok sa Buwan

Kakaiba, bigla akong na-depress kanina. Bakit tuwing Friday night ang lungkot ng hangin kapag naglalakad ako pauwi. Hindi ko talaga maintindihan, pero nalulungkot talaga ako. Well it's really not just a feeling of sadness, but more like emptiness. Sabi nung teacher namin sa hum kanina, the more knowledge you attain, the more sorrowful you become, ibig sabihin ba tumalino ako? Hehe, asa pa. Pero medyo naniniwala din ako dun, na ignorance is bliss. Hay, siguro kung mabaliw ka dahil sa sobrang saya, nirvana talaga yun. Alam mo yun, dahil baliw ka, masaya ka na palagi, you won't ever give a damn anymore about the things that happen outside your crazy little world. Here I go again, babbling on and on about my twisted ideas, nahahawa na ata ko dun sa teacher ko e, ang daldal niya kasi, pero unlike me, his ideas sound so philosophically intense while mine just seem plain stupid. What to do, what to do... Actually madami, hindi ko pa nga natatapos basahin yung binabasa kong nobela, kasi lagi na lang akong late umuwi at computer kaagad ang kaharap ko, tulad ngayon. Nakakainis nga e, maganda yung libro,pero the bulb of the reading lamp that I'm using got busted, ang hirap tuloy magbasa, ang liit kasi ng font.

Tatapusin ko na lang ang entry na ito sa pamamagitan ng lyrics ng suntok sa buwan, para me malagay ako sa title, wala na naman kasing sense pinagsusulat ko e. Pero ang ganda kasi ng lyrics, kanina ko lang nagets...

Hindi mo ba alam
Damdamin ko'y pinagtakpan
Makasama ka'y suntok sa buwan

'Di mo nga alam
Mundo mo nga'y iyong tignan
Kung ganyan, walang pupuntahan

Hindi ko 'to gusto
Pero 'wag kang lalayo

Itanong mo sa akin
At tatanungin ko rin
Kung ika'y aamin
Lahat ay gagawin

'Di mo napapansin
Kailangan mo akong dinggin
'Di habang buhay ika'y aantayin

Ito'y aking hiling
At sana naman ay tanggapin
Ng puso ko'y 'di nabibitin

Haaay...

paper paper paper

Putek, intro pa nga lang nahihirapan na akong gumawa e. Nakakatamad, grabe, lalo na kung napakadaming distractions! Pero kelangan ko magawa at least a quarter of my paper, para hindi naman ako masyadong mapraning later. wala lang, yun lang, delaying tactic.

blah part 2

Hehe, wala lang. Feel ko lang ulit magsulat kahit wala naman nangyaring importante. Ang pangit pala pag taglish ang entry mo, ang konyong trying hard ng dating, parang yung huli kong entry. Natawa ako nung binasa ko siya kanina. Ang weird, hindi ko maintindihan ang nararamdaman ko ngayon, para akong masayang hindi, kuntento pero marami pa ring gusto, busy pero hindi naman talaga, sa utak lang ang pagka-busy, sinisipag pero tinatamad, naghihintay pero hindi alam kung ano'ng hinihintay, nanonood ng tv pero ang isip nasa ibang eksena. Kakaiba, yun lang.

blah

Ang hirap naman magpaka-profound kapag hindi ka depressed, wala tuloy ako masulat. Ililista ko na lang ang mga nasasaisip ko:

1. My sister moved out na so akin na yung kwarto pag weekdays.
2. Sana hindi na ako masyado managinip ng mga events which resemble the end of the world, I usually cry in my sleep whenever I experience that e.
3. Sana magawa kong mag-lose ng 10 pounds.
4. Bakit ba wala pa ring stipends?!
5. I give up, wala na talaga akong masulat.

Year End Survey

1. What did you do in 2004 that you'd never done
before?
Matulog sa McDo. Andami e, mahirap sulat lahat.

2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will
you make more for next year?
> Hindi ko kelangan nun, mabait na ako e

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
> yup.

4. Did anyone close to you die?
> ala naman

5. What countries did you visit?
> France...sa panaginip

6. What would you like to have in 2005 that you lacked
in 2004?
> kotse!!! Kaso mahal na ang gas. Lablayp! wahaha!!!

7. What date from 2004 will remain etched upon your
memory, and why?
> hmmm...hirap naman...bday ko(?)..summer getaway din siguro

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
> Achievement? dami e. wahaha!

9. What was your biggest failure?
> Yung acad performance ko nung summer, sobrang disappointed sa akin ang mga tao dito sa bahay nun e.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
> Sa awa ng Diyos, oki naman ako

11. What was the best thing you bought?
> wahehe, wala akong pera nitong nakaraang taon e

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
> ako! ako! hehe. lahat ng kabarkada ko.:)

13. Whose behaviour made you appalled and depressed?
> basta, the ones who always keep my hopes up, but lets me down in the end... pero oki lang rin, naging mas independent and cautious naman ako.

14. Where did most of your money go?
> pagkain at pamasahe

15. What did you get really, really, really excited
about?
> summer getaway, enggweek, plant visit(hehe, no kidding), bday ni alex

16. What song will always remind you of 2004?
> hmmm...Ikaw nga, southborder, araw-araw kasi pinapatugtog sa mulawin

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder? happier
ii. thinner or fatter? parang fatter, mas nagtakaw ako this year
iii. richer or poorer? poorer!

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
> hmmm...sana mas nakapag out of town ako this year, more travel ba

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
> cry, worry, stress

20. How will you be spending Christmas?
> wala kami nun e, at tapos na din, natulog lang ako nun

22. Did you fall in love in 2004?
> hmmm...pag-iisipan ko muna...jok jok jok!!

23. How many one-night stands?
> sikreto...jok ulit! wish lang nila noh!

24. What was your favourite TV program?
> will and grace pa rin at gilmore girls

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this
time last yeaR?
> hindi naman ata hate, annoyed lang

26. What was the best book you read?
> Nagustuhan ko talaga yung god of small things, ang wierd ng pagkaka-narrate

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
> astig pala yung keane, tatlo lang sila, keyboards, at gitara, walang drums, pero buo pa rin yung songs, astig *ay mali, meron palang drums, pero gusto ko talaga style nila*

28. What did you want and get?
> small things lang naman, new pants, astig na shoes, bags etc.

29. What did you want and not get?
> driving lessons, bummer

30. favorite film of this year?
> mean girls, wahaha! ang ganda pala ng wicker park, ngayon ko pa lang napanood e, josh hartnett gwapo! basta yun kasi yung mga latest ko na napanood e.

31. what did you do on your birthday, and how old were
you?
> ano nga ba yun... house to house sa village ng aunt ko para sa FOPC, nung hapon kumain sa bahay with friends at tumuloy kami sa LFS ng Troy nung gabi, saya naman

32. What one thing would have made your year
immeasurably more satisfying?
> secret... ewan ko, siguro kung biglang pwede na akong grumadweyt now na, hehe, tinatamad na talaga akong mag-aral e.

33. how would you describe your personal fashion
concept in 2004?
> sabi ng ate ko, wirdo daw akong manamit. basta sinusuot ko lang kung ano ang komportable para sa akin.

34. What kept you sane?
> My faith and my friends, saka TV

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the
most?
> Eric bana sa troy, gwapo kaayo! Pero josh hartnett pa rin.

36. What political issue stirred you the most?
> Pyudalismo sa Pilipinas, American Imperialism, gloria bulok, hehe PI kasi

37. Who did you miss?
> wala naman ata, nakasama ko lahat ng gusto ko makasama...

38. Who was the best new person you met?
> Hmmm...ewan, wala ko maisip

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in
2004.
> Sometimes you get what you want, sometimes you don't, nevertheless, you should learn to count your blessings.

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.
> "Life has a funny way of sneaking up on you when you think everything's okay ang everything's going right. And life has a funny way of helping you out when you think everything's gone wrong and everything blows up in your face..." saka "There's a rainbow always after the rain...", meron pa pala, "Don't push too far, limitations scar..."

Engg week

Sayang, tapos na engg week, ang saya saya nya kasi kahit medyo naging halos 24/7 na siya para sa akin. Talagang sinagad ko ang pasensya ng nanay ko kasi dalawang beses akong umuwi nang umaga na para lang maligo at kumain at hindi pa kasama dun yung last night ng engg week na hindi talaga ako umuwi at nung kinahapunan ay nagyaya pang manlibre yung kabarkada ko nung high school kasi bday nya kaya halos dalawang gabi akong hindi umuwi kasi madaling araw na akong nakabalik sa bahay. Ngayong engg week ko lang naranasan na maglakad mula KNL hanggang engg dahil wala na kaming masakyan nung isa kong kasama sa band ng org at ngayon ko lang rin naranasan na dahil sa wala na talagang matulugan dahil madaling-araw na ay naglakad na lang papunta sa mcdo philcoa at dun natulog, kakatawa talaga.

Sobrang sulit ko talaga ang engg week at nung last day ay may pahabol pa kaming duet na singing contest na naka-second place pa kami nung kapartner ko kahit super impromptu lang yung song namin at ni wala man kaming minus one kaya a capella lang yung performance. Nung hapon, nagpasama ako dun sa isa kong kaibigan para isoli yung gitara ng pinsan ko sa tandang sora tapos pagbalik bumili ako ng regalo para dun sa monito ko. Kahit na second kami at hindi first sa over-all ranking ng engg week ay ayos lang, hindi naman down ang mga tao kasi alam namin na we all played fair hindi kagaya nung iba na obvious na nandaya. Ang saya talaga, pero nalungkot nga lang ako kasi nung last night akala ko kumpleto kaming magkakasama nung mga kabarkada ko kaso yung isa hindi pinayagang mag-stay, yung isa, hindi ko alam kung nasaan nga ba at yung isa naman, may trabaho pa at halos hindi ko man na-feel yung presence.

In fairness, ang tino na ng facade ng cubao ngayon pag gabi, siguro dahil yuns newly opened na gateway mall. Dati kasi pag cubao, naiisip ko lang ay puro magnanakaw pero ngayon nagawa pa naming maka-gimik dun.

Hay...walang coherence tong entry ko, pasensya bangag pa ako kasi kakagising ko lang mula sa 12-hr sleep ko, pero kahit anupaman, masaya ako.:)

Paris

Masaya tong araw na ito in fairness.

Nung umaga pumunta ako sa pasalamat para sa mga kabataan kasi sinama namin ng nanay ko yung baby namin at pareho kaming naiyak ng nanay ko nung nananalangin na, kasi sobrang nagpapasalamat talaga kami at nagkaroon kami ng munting anghel sa bahay namin.

Pag-uwi ko may inasikaso ako para dun sa banda na pinapaayos nung organizer nung jameng'g kaya medyo tanghali na ako nakapunta sa skul. Masaya naman ang naabutan ko, kahit na hindi naman talaga ako nakalaro, pakiramdam ko kasali pa rin ako kasi todo nagsusuportahan kami ng mga orgmates ko.

Pagkatapos nakikain muna kami dun sa party ng department namin bago kami pumunta dun sa pagpapraktisan ng mga kabanda ko. Masaya naman yung nangyari kahit na akala ko ay medyo kakaiba kasi ako lang ang babae sa amin. Hindi pa rin masyadong naaayos yung mga kanta pero ok lang kasi first practice pa lang naman e, kayang-kaya nila yun, magaling naman sila e, lalo na yung gitarista. Natuwa din ako kasi ok din yung nakuha naming bagong bokalista kahit na medyo nahihiya pa siya. Natatawa ako kasi nabuhay na naman yung dating isyu na hindi naman talaga isyu dahil mali kasi ang ipormasyon at iyon ay isang pawang tsismis lamang. Masaya naman yung gabi, pagkatapos ng praktis nilibre kami nung isa alumni na kasama namin at nagkukulitan kami lahat sa McDo. Pilit naming pinagkakasya ang 200 pesos sa siyam na tao kasi lahat kami ay walang pera at umaasa lang sa libre at in fairness, nagawan naman ng paraan.

Buti na lang din at sinabayan ako nung isa kong kasama pauwi kundi kaawa-awa talaga ako nun.

At bilang panghuli, nahuhumaling na talaga ako dun sa isang napili naming kanta na tutugtugin nila, sana lang talaga walang sablay...