Hala, naflip na. Nag-update na naman. Wala akong mahanap na isusuot sa photoshoot bukas. Me sinukat ako tapos tinanong ko kapatid ko, sabi niya mukha daw akong abstract, hehe, sa tingin ko nga rin. Meron pa akong isang sinukat, mukha naman akong losyang. Yung isa, oki lang, pero hindi ko pa rin feel. Bahala na, ang hirap kasi hanapan nung napili naming motif e.
Nagugutom ako. Hindi ako inaantok pero nagui-guilty ako na hindi ako natutulog kasi alam kong kelangan ko yun lalo na sa mga panahong ito. Kaso andami kong nainom na coke kanina e tapos nagkape pa ako. Nagugutom ako. Ay, nasabi ko na pala yun.
Ang saya talaga ng soundtrack ng 50 first dates, napaka... basta... makabagbag-damdamin? Parang ganun. Malungkot pero hindi. Well, madami namang ganung kanta e, masaya yung mensahe pero malungkot pa rin kasi hindi ka naman maka-relate sa kasayahan nung kanta. Maiisip mo lang na wala ka nung mga sinasabi nung kumakanta, na parang ang saya saya niya kasi inlab siya, na parang buo na ang buhay niya kasi meron na siyang mahal, pero kaw, wala lang, malulungkot ka lang ng lubos kasi wala ka nun. Twak! Ano ba ito? Nafi-flip na talaga ako. Kelangan ko nang gumimik. Kelangan na ng dibersyon. Grabe, ang tagal ko nang hindi gumigimik, namimiss ko na mga pinsan ko, siraulo kasi yung mga yun e. Ang galing galing nilang maghanap ng pang-aliw, kayang kaya naming ubusin ang magdamag hanggang umagahin na sa kakagimik sa kung saan saan. Naalala ko tuloy nung nag-Adonis kami, yak yak talaga, hindi ko na ulet gagawin yun sa buong buhay ko. Pero nakakatawa yun kasi dumating yung puntong parang wala lang, kebs na lang sa mga nasa stage. Pero kadiri talaga. Tapos nung isang beses na nag-Malate kami, bigla kaming nag-Tagaytay pagkatapos para magpalamig at mag-inuman out of sheer impulse at hanggang ngayon ay hindi alam ng mga magulang namin ang ginawa naming yun. Yun talaga ang isa sa mga pinaka hindi ko makakalimutang pangyayari sa buhay ko. Grabe, miss ko na ang mga happening na nakalipas.
Pero iba na talaga priorities ko sa ngayon. Need to focus on the more important things. Tumatanda na e, hehe. Medyo sawa na rin ako sa mga inuman, hindi gaya dati na OA talaga ko uminom, patayan ba, bawal kasi sa aming tumigil hangga't meron pang iinumin o kaya man ay nagsusuka ka na. Hmmm... Nagdadalawang-isip ako kung ipu-publish ko ba itong entry na ito, napapaghalata ang mga kalokohan ko dati e, hehe, pero enjoy yun! Naloko na. Bahala na.
Monday, March 14, 2005
Sunday, March 13, 2005
Sayang
Hay, kainis. My HS friends had a blast dun sa gig sa Pisay, mega kinukulit pa naman nila akong pumunta. Nainggit ako to the highest level kaya I'm just channeling my lack of time and money to my beloved blog. Putek, ang pathetic ko na, this is my third entry for today.
Kakainis talaga, mejo k lang pala kahit walang ticket kasi they were able to sneak in friends of band members. Malas, wrong timing. Yun lang, delaying tactics lang ako from doing my 140 powerpoint presentation.
Kakainis talaga, mejo k lang pala kahit walang ticket kasi they were able to sneak in friends of band members. Malas, wrong timing. Yun lang, delaying tactics lang ako from doing my 140 powerpoint presentation.
listahan
Bago ako magsimulang gumawa ng mga homework, ililista ko muna lahat ng mga gagawin/ ipapass para hindi masyado magulo utak ko:
Monday: submit 135 paper. photo chenes ng incoming EC. ham ng 4-7. burn cd for 140 presentation. intindihin ang CE 22 kasi niratratan kami ni sir vergel ng homework, 3 homeworks to be submitted in 1 meeting! na-excite siya masyado. Ang dami ko palang gagawin sa araw na ito.
Tuesday: Pass 140 powerpoint. Pass CE 22 homework. Meet KEM band ng 5:30. Prepare for my 140 presentation sa wednesday.
Wednesday: ChE 140 reporting. Mamalengke kasama ang co-EC. Prepare for induction. Aral for EEE 1 practicals.
Thursday: Go to church. EEE 1 practicals. Uwi sa bahay at magprepare ng food for induction. Balik sa school at mag-ayos ng venue for induction. Induction!!!
Friday: Wala lang. Gusto ko sana manood ng sine or mag-mall or something kaso wala naman akong kasama. Bahala na, I have no plans pa for this day.
Weekend: Aral for CE 22 exam. Aral for EEE 1 exam. 135 paper. Baka dito rin ang EC treat.
Ang hectic naman. Patapos na kasi ang sem. Matatapos at matatapos din naman to e. Pero excited ako kahit na overwhelmed with the workload. :P
Monday: submit 135 paper. photo chenes ng incoming EC. ham ng 4-7. burn cd for 140 presentation. intindihin ang CE 22 kasi niratratan kami ni sir vergel ng homework, 3 homeworks to be submitted in 1 meeting! na-excite siya masyado. Ang dami ko palang gagawin sa araw na ito.
Tuesday: Pass 140 powerpoint. Pass CE 22 homework. Meet KEM band ng 5:30. Prepare for my 140 presentation sa wednesday.
Wednesday: ChE 140 reporting. Mamalengke kasama ang co-EC. Prepare for induction. Aral for EEE 1 practicals.
Thursday: Go to church. EEE 1 practicals. Uwi sa bahay at magprepare ng food for induction. Balik sa school at mag-ayos ng venue for induction. Induction!!!
Friday: Wala lang. Gusto ko sana manood ng sine or mag-mall or something kaso wala naman akong kasama. Bahala na, I have no plans pa for this day.
Weekend: Aral for CE 22 exam. Aral for EEE 1 exam. 135 paper. Baka dito rin ang EC treat.
Ang hectic naman. Patapos na kasi ang sem. Matatapos at matatapos din naman to e. Pero excited ako kahit na overwhelmed with the workload. :P
Gender bender
Your Brain is 46.67% Female, 53.33% Male |
Your brain is a healthy mix of male and female You are both sensitive and savvy Rational and reasonable, you tend to keep level headed But you also tend to wear your heart on your sleeve |
Kamusta naman, mas lalaki pa pala ako. Ang saya, napagawa ko na salamin ko kaya nakakapagnet pa ako kahit ala-una na! Nag-mall kasi kami kanina nila Mama at Ate kaya sinamantala ko na ang pagkakataon.:P
Saturday, March 12, 2005
Manok part 2
Nagising na naman ako sa mga manok. Panget ng gising ko. Nagpaprint ako ng EEE handouts sa tatay ko at nakita ko na naman yung finished product, wadahek! Ginawa na namang 1 slide per page! Pucha naman, nasabi ko na yon sa tatay ko e, na 4 or 6 slides per page, siguro kasi pdf file siya kaya hindi niya alam kung paano i-edit. Pero naha-hayblad talaga ako, mukha na siyang kasing kapal ng libro at supposedly there are two lectures pa sabi ni Maam. Hindi naman ako pwede mainis kasi ako na nga lang itong nagpaprint, ako pa magrereklamo. Putek, this sucks.
Nalulungkot ako, nafi-feel ko na naman ang pagiging sacrificial lamb ko dito sa bahay, lagi kasi ang nagiging kaso ay I have to give up things of my own to give way for other members of the house. Kung kelangan may puntahan, kahit malayo, ako palagi, mag-absent na lang daw ako, saka na mag-aral. Tapos dahil sa financial turmoil namin ay meron na naman akong kelangan igive-up for my brother sa pag-aaral niya sa college. Putek, chunks are building up in my throat na. Nakakalungkot talaga. Pero alam ko namang no choice ako kasi si Ate ay may trabaho at ang kapatid kong mas bata ay plain useless at baka kapag siya pa ang inutusan ay lalo pang magkandaleche-leche. Ako rin ang nagiging dumpsite ng nanay ko ng kanyang excess baggage towards our situation. Pero ako, hindi ako pwede magreklamo coz I don't want to heighten my mom's worries, nakikinig na lang ako kahit ayoko na talaga kasi it's really weighing me down. Ganun talaga. Wala na akong magagawa, ganito na ito for life.
Sana may kadamay ako sa bigat ng loob ko na hindi ako iiwan kahit ano mangyari, na magiging pader kong sasandalan at sisilungan kapag masyado na akong napapaso sa init ng araw.
Sana hindi na ulit ako magresort sa masasamang bisyo...
Nalulungkot ako, nafi-feel ko na naman ang pagiging sacrificial lamb ko dito sa bahay, lagi kasi ang nagiging kaso ay I have to give up things of my own to give way for other members of the house. Kung kelangan may puntahan, kahit malayo, ako palagi, mag-absent na lang daw ako, saka na mag-aral. Tapos dahil sa financial turmoil namin ay meron na naman akong kelangan igive-up for my brother sa pag-aaral niya sa college. Putek, chunks are building up in my throat na. Nakakalungkot talaga. Pero alam ko namang no choice ako kasi si Ate ay may trabaho at ang kapatid kong mas bata ay plain useless at baka kapag siya pa ang inutusan ay lalo pang magkandaleche-leche. Ako rin ang nagiging dumpsite ng nanay ko ng kanyang excess baggage towards our situation. Pero ako, hindi ako pwede magreklamo coz I don't want to heighten my mom's worries, nakikinig na lang ako kahit ayoko na talaga kasi it's really weighing me down. Ganun talaga. Wala na akong magagawa, ganito na ito for life.
Sana may kadamay ako sa bigat ng loob ko na hindi ako iiwan kahit ano mangyari, na magiging pader kong sasandalan at sisilungan kapag masyado na akong napapaso sa init ng araw.
Sana hindi na ulit ako magresort sa masasamang bisyo...
Friday, March 11, 2005
Manok
Tarantadong mga manok ng kapit bahay na yan. Ang aga aga ko nagising kasi tilaok sila ng tilaok. E ang babaw ko pa namang matulog. Bukas pagsasasaksakin ko na yang mga yan, at iuulam. Tama ba naman kasing mag-alaga ng mga manok na pangsabong sa lote sa likod ng bahay namin, mejo subdivision kasi to e, kahit na wala naman talaga akong karapatang makialam dun. Pasensya na, I feel really crappy, wala pa kasing limang oras ang tulog ko at sadyang hindi na sila tumigil sa pagtilaok. Gud am.
Wednesday, March 09, 2005
Haba nito
March 4, 2005:
I got home at a little past ten, nag-mini stop pa kasi kami ni Erma e, super gutom na kasi ako, hindi kasi ako nakagapag-dinner before our exam. I did bad in the test, I wasn’t able to study well because I was very busy preparing some things for the elections in KEM tapos the night before the exam, Mama asked me to go to my sister’s place to pick up something. Kaso masyado akong naengganyong maglibot kasi sa Eastwood yung condo ni Ate kaya late na ako nakauwi at pagdating ko sa bahay ay pagod na talaga ako. Ayun, palpak talaga yung exam.
March 5, 2005:
Hay salamat at nakapagpahinga na akong muli. Kagabi natulog ako at around eleven tapos nagising ako ng mga 6 at nagbasa-basa ng nobela at natulog ulit ng mga seven. Ginising ako ni Mama ng nine kasi kelangan na bayaran yung insurance at tubig so I got up, naligo at humayo na. Dumaan din ako kanina sandali sa skul para makiusyoso total dadaan din naman ako ng katips. Tapos umuwi na ako at natulog ulit for three more hours, sarap!
Namimiss ko na high school friends ko. They’ve been constantly asking me to have lunch or dinner with them kaso I’m just too busy for now. Dalawa pa kasi exam ko nitong nakaraang week kaya haggaran talaga. Gusto ko nang makipagtsismisan tungkol sa latest sa mga minamahal kong batchmates sa Pisay. Nagyayaya nga silang pumuntang skul e para sa Pisay fair, tutugtog din kasi yung Deltajoy. But no! The ticket for the concert na gaganapin costs 150! Hindi na lang, said na talaga ang bulsa ko e, tipid to the max ako ngayon. Ang olats olats ko nga e, ang tagal ko na talagang hindi nakakapag-mall, ni hindi ko man lang mapapalitan yung lens nung salamin ko, hirap na hirap tuloy ako pag nagkaklase. Hay, Dr. Ester Ogena ng DOST nagsusumamo ako sa iyo, bigay mo na yung reimbursement ko. Makapunta ngang DLRC next week para mangulet.
March 9, 2005
Nagpunta ako sa Albert Hall kanina para suportahan yung friends ko sa thesis defense nila. Though I didn’t understand any of their topics, kasi parang hard core genetics na siya, natuwa pa rin ako kasi parang todo na-apply nila ang mga natutunan nila at mukhang may sense talaga yung mga research nila, about vaccines, epitopes, malaria, at pagpatay ng mga daga. Parang napupunta talaga ako sa ibang dimension kapag sila kasama ko, kumpara kasi sa mga tao sa Engg parang super tamed (excuse the term) ng mga tao sa Albert, parang hindi sila taga-UP, ang behave nila. Pero I still have an equally great time pag kasama ko ang HS friends ko. They have just the right dose of superficiality that kind of what makes them different from my other friends, may pagka-konyotic na hindi kasi yung mga yun e, konyotic pero ang lupet uminom at magmura. Pero ang galing talaga nila, alam na alam nila whenever something’s bothering me, as in tatawag sila or text ng pangangamusta o yayaya sa labas tapos yun, kayang kaya nila akong paiyakin kasi ilalabas ko na lahat ng sama ng loob ko. Alam na alam nilang isang bote lang ng red horse ang katapat for me to spill my guts out, umiiyak habang tumatawa, palibahasa lasing, pero hindi ako masyadong naaapektuhan ng hard drinks. Tapos kapag bigla akong pumupunta sa Albert, they’ll pause what they’re doing para kulitin ko sila. Mayroon kasing mga bagay na hindi ko masabi sa mga Engg friends ko na sa kanila ko lang nasasabi and vice versa kaya kelangan ko talaga sila pareho sa buhay ko. Kaso, unlike my Engg friends mejo protected talaga sila kaya mas spontaneous ang mga kaibigan ko sa Engg. Pero either way, I love all of my friends and they are the ones who help keep my sanity intact.
Bumalik na ako ng Engg nung maglu-lunch na sila, ayoko sumama dun sa mga yun, pag sila ang kasama ko kumain napapagastos talaga ako ng malupet e.
Ayun, tapos na eleksyon, mixed emotions ang nararamdaman ko, excited, natatakot, overwhelmed. Na-drain talaga ako nung campaign period and even before nun kasi kalaban ko yung kabarkada ko at na-feel ko talaga na may tension sa pagitan namin tuwing election issues ang pag-uusapan. Sobrang umiyak ako nung nalaman kong tatakbo pala siya, hindi lang isang beses, kaya emotional rollercoaster talaga ever nung preparations, e mejo sensitive talaga ako pag friendship issues e, as in to the highest level. Pero nairaos na din naman. Sayang lang at hindi ko makakasama sa pagiging EC yung iba kong kaibigan kahit na alam kong kayang kaya din naman nila ang trabaho, pero hindi ko naman kasi desisyon yun. Alam ko malaking responsibilidad ang aakuin ko pero aware naman ako dun mula pa nung una kong mapagdesisyunang tumakbo. Alam ko na kapag nagsimula na ang term namin ay tuluy-tuloy na trabaho ito and there’s no room to slack off. Kelangan mabalance ng mabuti ang oras, pera at atensyon, pordat, bibili na ako ng matinong planner. Pero ang pinaka-concern ko talaga ay ang gastos kasi hindi napupulot ang pera. Well, come to think of it… when we start working... it IS a never ending gastos... Never ending pagtatabi ng pera... pang events, panplano, pangkain, pang gimik (hehe, sabay ganun)... pero the rewards naman are priceless: happiness and fulfillment, the feeling of completeness and joy is actually more important than that popular concept of 'ginhawa'... I find a moment of laughter, of joy in gaining new friends, of happiness in knowing that you’ll be able to help to the best of your ability- despite the monotony of work and sacrifices - more rewarding than having comfort.. Siyempre when we look at it, the task ahead of us is daunting…pero come to think of it, what big responsibility isn’t daba? I’ll just have to work hard to do my best like what I’ve really planned from the start. Salamat sa lahat ng nagtiwala! :)
I got home at a little past ten, nag-mini stop pa kasi kami ni Erma e, super gutom na kasi ako, hindi kasi ako nakagapag-dinner before our exam. I did bad in the test, I wasn’t able to study well because I was very busy preparing some things for the elections in KEM tapos the night before the exam, Mama asked me to go to my sister’s place to pick up something. Kaso masyado akong naengganyong maglibot kasi sa Eastwood yung condo ni Ate kaya late na ako nakauwi at pagdating ko sa bahay ay pagod na talaga ako. Ayun, palpak talaga yung exam.
March 5, 2005:
Hay salamat at nakapagpahinga na akong muli. Kagabi natulog ako at around eleven tapos nagising ako ng mga 6 at nagbasa-basa ng nobela at natulog ulit ng mga seven. Ginising ako ni Mama ng nine kasi kelangan na bayaran yung insurance at tubig so I got up, naligo at humayo na. Dumaan din ako kanina sandali sa skul para makiusyoso total dadaan din naman ako ng katips. Tapos umuwi na ako at natulog ulit for three more hours, sarap!
Namimiss ko na high school friends ko. They’ve been constantly asking me to have lunch or dinner with them kaso I’m just too busy for now. Dalawa pa kasi exam ko nitong nakaraang week kaya haggaran talaga. Gusto ko nang makipagtsismisan tungkol sa latest sa mga minamahal kong batchmates sa Pisay. Nagyayaya nga silang pumuntang skul e para sa Pisay fair, tutugtog din kasi yung Deltajoy. But no! The ticket for the concert na gaganapin costs 150! Hindi na lang, said na talaga ang bulsa ko e, tipid to the max ako ngayon. Ang olats olats ko nga e, ang tagal ko na talagang hindi nakakapag-mall, ni hindi ko man lang mapapalitan yung lens nung salamin ko, hirap na hirap tuloy ako pag nagkaklase. Hay, Dr. Ester Ogena ng DOST nagsusumamo ako sa iyo, bigay mo na yung reimbursement ko. Makapunta ngang DLRC next week para mangulet.
March 9, 2005
Nagpunta ako sa Albert Hall kanina para suportahan yung friends ko sa thesis defense nila. Though I didn’t understand any of their topics, kasi parang hard core genetics na siya, natuwa pa rin ako kasi parang todo na-apply nila ang mga natutunan nila at mukhang may sense talaga yung mga research nila, about vaccines, epitopes, malaria, at pagpatay ng mga daga. Parang napupunta talaga ako sa ibang dimension kapag sila kasama ko, kumpara kasi sa mga tao sa Engg parang super tamed (excuse the term) ng mga tao sa Albert, parang hindi sila taga-UP, ang behave nila. Pero I still have an equally great time pag kasama ko ang HS friends ko. They have just the right dose of superficiality that kind of what makes them different from my other friends, may pagka-konyotic na hindi kasi yung mga yun e, konyotic pero ang lupet uminom at magmura. Pero ang galing talaga nila, alam na alam nila whenever something’s bothering me, as in tatawag sila or text ng pangangamusta o yayaya sa labas tapos yun, kayang kaya nila akong paiyakin kasi ilalabas ko na lahat ng sama ng loob ko. Alam na alam nilang isang bote lang ng red horse ang katapat for me to spill my guts out, umiiyak habang tumatawa, palibahasa lasing, pero hindi ako masyadong naaapektuhan ng hard drinks. Tapos kapag bigla akong pumupunta sa Albert, they’ll pause what they’re doing para kulitin ko sila. Mayroon kasing mga bagay na hindi ko masabi sa mga Engg friends ko na sa kanila ko lang nasasabi and vice versa kaya kelangan ko talaga sila pareho sa buhay ko. Kaso, unlike my Engg friends mejo protected talaga sila kaya mas spontaneous ang mga kaibigan ko sa Engg. Pero either way, I love all of my friends and they are the ones who help keep my sanity intact.
Bumalik na ako ng Engg nung maglu-lunch na sila, ayoko sumama dun sa mga yun, pag sila ang kasama ko kumain napapagastos talaga ako ng malupet e.
Ayun, tapos na eleksyon, mixed emotions ang nararamdaman ko, excited, natatakot, overwhelmed. Na-drain talaga ako nung campaign period and even before nun kasi kalaban ko yung kabarkada ko at na-feel ko talaga na may tension sa pagitan namin tuwing election issues ang pag-uusapan. Sobrang umiyak ako nung nalaman kong tatakbo pala siya, hindi lang isang beses, kaya emotional rollercoaster talaga ever nung preparations, e mejo sensitive talaga ako pag friendship issues e, as in to the highest level. Pero nairaos na din naman. Sayang lang at hindi ko makakasama sa pagiging EC yung iba kong kaibigan kahit na alam kong kayang kaya din naman nila ang trabaho, pero hindi ko naman kasi desisyon yun. Alam ko malaking responsibilidad ang aakuin ko pero aware naman ako dun mula pa nung una kong mapagdesisyunang tumakbo. Alam ko na kapag nagsimula na ang term namin ay tuluy-tuloy na trabaho ito and there’s no room to slack off. Kelangan mabalance ng mabuti ang oras, pera at atensyon, pordat, bibili na ako ng matinong planner. Pero ang pinaka-concern ko talaga ay ang gastos kasi hindi napupulot ang pera. Well, come to think of it… when we start working... it IS a never ending gastos... Never ending pagtatabi ng pera... pang events, panplano, pangkain, pang gimik (hehe, sabay ganun)... pero the rewards naman are priceless: happiness and fulfillment, the feeling of completeness and joy is actually more important than that popular concept of 'ginhawa'... I find a moment of laughter, of joy in gaining new friends, of happiness in knowing that you’ll be able to help to the best of your ability- despite the monotony of work and sacrifices - more rewarding than having comfort.. Siyempre when we look at it, the task ahead of us is daunting…pero come to think of it, what big responsibility isn’t daba? I’ll just have to work hard to do my best like what I’ve really planned from the start. Salamat sa lahat ng nagtiwala! :)
Tuesday, March 08, 2005
Rated X
put an 'X' next to what u have accomplished
(x) snuck out of the house
( ) gotten lost in your city
(x) seen a shooting star
(x) been to any other countries besides the united states
(x) had a serious surgery *hindi naman life-threatening, pero umabot siya ng about 20 stitches*
(x) gone out in public in your pajamas
( ) kissed a stranger
( ) hugged a stranger
( ) been in a fist fight
( ) been arrested
( ) done drugs
(x) Had alcohol
(x) laughed and had milk/coke come out of your nose
( ) pushed all the buttons on an elevator
( ) swore at your parents
( ) been in love
(x) been close to love
( ) been to a casino
( ) been skydiving
( ) broken a bone
( ) been high
( ) skinny-dipped
(x) skipped school
( ) flashed someone
( ) saw a therapist
(x) played spin the bottle
(x) gotten stitches
( ) drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour
(x) bitten someone
( ) been to Niagara Falls
(x) gotten the chicken pox
( ) kissed a member of the opposite sex
( ) kissed a member of the same sex
( ) crashed into a friend's car
(x) been to Japan
(x) ridden in a taxi
( ) been dumped
(x) shoplifted *unintentionally naman*
( ) been fired
(x) had a crush on someone of the same sex
(x) had feelings for someone who didnt have them back
( ) stolen something from your job
( ) gone on a blind date
(x) lied to a friend
(x) had a crush on a teacher
( ) celebrated mardi-gras in new orleans
( ) been to Europe
( ) slept with a co-worker
( ) been married
( ) gotten divorced
( ) had children
( ) seen someone die
( ) had a close friend die
( ) been to Africa
( ) Driven over 400 miles in one day
( ) Been to Canada
( ) Been to Mexico
(x) Been on a plane
( ) Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show
( ) Thrown up in a bar
( ) Purposely set a part of myself on fire
(x) Eaten Sushi
( ) Been snowboarding
( ) Met someone in person from the internet
( ) lost a child
(x) gone to college
( ) graduated college (almost...)
( ) done hard drugs
( ) tried killing yourself
( ) fired a gun
(x) purposely hurt yourself
(x) taken painkillers
(x) love someone or miss someone right now..
Mejo I feel numb right now. Walang pakialamanan. Kelangan ko pa i-organize thoughts ko kaya survey na lang muna.:)
(x) snuck out of the house
( ) gotten lost in your city
(x) seen a shooting star
(x) been to any other countries besides the united states
(x) had a serious surgery *hindi naman life-threatening, pero umabot siya ng about 20 stitches*
(x) gone out in public in your pajamas
( ) kissed a stranger
( ) hugged a stranger
( ) been in a fist fight
( ) been arrested
( ) done drugs
(x) Had alcohol
(x) laughed and had milk/coke come out of your nose
( ) pushed all the buttons on an elevator
( ) swore at your parents
( ) been in love
(x) been close to love
( ) been to a casino
( ) been skydiving
( ) broken a bone
( ) been high
( ) skinny-dipped
(x) skipped school
( ) flashed someone
( ) saw a therapist
(x) played spin the bottle
(x) gotten stitches
( ) drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour
(x) bitten someone
( ) been to Niagara Falls
(x) gotten the chicken pox
( ) kissed a member of the opposite sex
( ) kissed a member of the same sex
( ) crashed into a friend's car
(x) been to Japan
(x) ridden in a taxi
( ) been dumped
(x) shoplifted *unintentionally naman*
( ) been fired
(x) had a crush on someone of the same sex
(x) had feelings for someone who didnt have them back
( ) stolen something from your job
( ) gone on a blind date
(x) lied to a friend
(x) had a crush on a teacher
( ) celebrated mardi-gras in new orleans
( ) been to Europe
( ) slept with a co-worker
( ) been married
( ) gotten divorced
( ) had children
( ) seen someone die
( ) had a close friend die
( ) been to Africa
( ) Driven over 400 miles in one day
( ) Been to Canada
( ) Been to Mexico
(x) Been on a plane
( ) Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show
( ) Thrown up in a bar
( ) Purposely set a part of myself on fire
(x) Eaten Sushi
( ) Been snowboarding
( ) Met someone in person from the internet
( ) lost a child
(x) gone to college
( ) graduated college (almost...)
( ) done hard drugs
( ) tried killing yourself
( ) fired a gun
(x) purposely hurt yourself
(x) taken painkillers
(x) love someone or miss someone right now..
Mejo I feel numb right now. Walang pakialamanan. Kelangan ko pa i-organize thoughts ko kaya survey na lang muna.:)
Saturday, February 26, 2005
Affection
hug from behind - you like to feel what the other
person is feeling and see things how they see
them. you tend to be serious and emotional.
What Sign of Affection Are You?
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Sunday, February 13, 2005
Saturday, February 12, 2005
Color of my heart
Your Heart is Blue
What Color is Your Heart?
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Ano ba naman yun, wrong spelling pa. Pero naalala ko, once upon a time sinabi ko kay shal yung last line nito e, lagi kasi inlab si shally, lalo na dati, e ngayon kaya? hmmm...
Saturday, February 05, 2005
Wadahek
Wadahek. Naguguluhan na naman ang utak ko. Feeling ko ang dami kong gagawin pero hindi naman talaga. I'm stressing over nothing and thinking that I'm stressing over nothing stresses me even more.
Pero syempre kahit na feeling stressed ako, kanina, pagkagaling namin ng mga kaibigan ko sa cubao, natulog lang ako mula 2:30 to 6 at pagkagising ko ay nanood pa ako ng movie tuloy nood ng gilmore girls. Syet, procrastination sucks.
The movie I watched was fairly good. It was about what's really important in life, you know those kind of movies. It makes you feel really bad during the course of the show, bida has a very abundant life but some life turning event happens and he experiences the lowest point of his life. Then he meets someone who'll teach him life lessons which, in turn, will make him realize that it doesn't matter how much money he has but how much love he has gained in his life. Whatever. It's such a depressing shit. And I'm a real shithead for being affected. And made me realize how much of a masochist I truly am. I always say things that I really don't mean and know that I'll only get hurt by doing so. I'm always so hard on myself. Nakakainis, feeling ko kasi kapag meron kang nararamdaman na masama dapat lalo mo pang saktan ang sarili mo kasi in the end you'll feel better...or just plain numb. Para bang sugat na naimpeksyon na dapat mong putukin kahit masakit para lumabas lahat ng nana, pag wala nang nana, gagaling na daba? Hay, bwiset.
Ijo-jog ko na lang to. Nakakaadik magjog.
*Don't push too far, limitations scar*- Natalie Imbruglia
Pero syempre kahit na feeling stressed ako, kanina, pagkagaling namin ng mga kaibigan ko sa cubao, natulog lang ako mula 2:30 to 6 at pagkagising ko ay nanood pa ako ng movie tuloy nood ng gilmore girls. Syet, procrastination sucks.
The movie I watched was fairly good. It was about what's really important in life, you know those kind of movies. It makes you feel really bad during the course of the show, bida has a very abundant life but some life turning event happens and he experiences the lowest point of his life. Then he meets someone who'll teach him life lessons which, in turn, will make him realize that it doesn't matter how much money he has but how much love he has gained in his life. Whatever. It's such a depressing shit. And I'm a real shithead for being affected. And made me realize how much of a masochist I truly am. I always say things that I really don't mean and know that I'll only get hurt by doing so. I'm always so hard on myself. Nakakainis, feeling ko kasi kapag meron kang nararamdaman na masama dapat lalo mo pang saktan ang sarili mo kasi in the end you'll feel better...or just plain numb. Para bang sugat na naimpeksyon na dapat mong putukin kahit masakit para lumabas lahat ng nana, pag wala nang nana, gagaling na daba? Hay, bwiset.
Ijo-jog ko na lang to. Nakakaadik magjog.
*Don't push too far, limitations scar*- Natalie Imbruglia
Wednesday, February 02, 2005
Wala lang, naisip ko lang, these are the songs that really overwhelm me, tipong biglang nag-iiba yung mood ko pag naririnig ko sila:
1.Don’t Dream It’s Over- Crowded House
2.Alaala- True Faith
3.Back to You- John Meyer
4.Kiss from a Rose- Seal
5.Buloy-Parokya ni Edgar
6.Beauty on fire-Natalie Imbruglia
7.Somewhere in Time
8.Moon River
9.Africa-Toto
10.The Scientist-Coldplay
Haaaaay...
1.Don’t Dream It’s Over- Crowded House
2.Alaala- True Faith
3.Back to You- John Meyer
4.Kiss from a Rose- Seal
5.Buloy-Parokya ni Edgar
6.Beauty on fire-Natalie Imbruglia
7.Somewhere in Time
8.Moon River
9.Africa-Toto
10.The Scientist-Coldplay
Haaaaay...
Sunday, January 30, 2005
relax
Wow, at last i had a peaceful and sound 12-hr sleep after a week of staying up late to study for two exams and to do my paper.
Yesterday, I cleaned up my room since the floor was full of clutter and there was barely any space left to walk on. Mama also gave us a new rack for our clothes so I spent most of the day rearranging my room and organizing our clothes, shoes, and bags. After fixing everything up, I was very pleased, I realized that we had so much stuff, especially shoes. I dozed off after cleaning up and it felt so nice to finally sleep in a tidy room and on a bed that had very clean sheets.
Last Friday, I watched Mutya ng NIP with some of my high school friends after an excruciating ChE 123 exam. When I entered the building, it felt rather unusual , I expected a lot of people to be running about and preparing and stuff. But instead, it was quiet, as if it was just an ordinary day. When I went into the room of the program, I was a bit surprised because it was very...should I say "intimate"? It was a very small scale version of Ms. Engg. There were only five contestants from the different laboratories, and their preparation was really....hmmm...humble compared to that of engineering orgs. Oh well, what can I expect, their population was very small compared to our college and the event only involved one department. Anyway, I just enjoyed the show. The question and answer portion was very entertaining, the judges were asking very absurd questions like "Bakit mabuti ang may buhok sa kilikili?" and "Ano gagawin mo kapag meron ka at nag-cause ito ng matinding pamumuo ng dugo o blood clot?". The contestants were so witty and funny, especially pocahontas who, when asked what she/he would do as a princess in case a tsunami hit her kingdom answered, "Kasi naman, pag may tsunami ay wala ka na talagang magagawa, kaya ako, tatakbo na lang ako!" with matching actions pa!. Though she/he was the most unfortunate-looking among the contestants, her charm, wit and promiscuity won her/him the title.
After the program we went to katips to have dinner. We were supposed to eat in an Asian resto but it was closing when we arrived, so we just settled for Shakey's. I was really disappointed coz I realized that the resto we passed on was Tajma, the one featured in F and it supposedly had a moroccan smoke, something like a cigarette but actually wasn't. I think was called huka or something that sounded like that. Anyway, we had a great time like we always do whenever we go out, reminiscing, talking about the latest in each other's lives and laughing our hearts out.
I was supposed to hitch a ride home with my friend. But we finished at around a little past midnight, so I just decided to sleep at her house coz it was her parents who picked her up, not the driver, and it would be dyahe to ask them to bring me home that late. We stayed up until three just talking about...stuff, hehe. They dropped me off at my house the next morning.
Hmmm... I don't have a profound ending sentence so...wala lang, yun lang.
Yesterday, I cleaned up my room since the floor was full of clutter and there was barely any space left to walk on. Mama also gave us a new rack for our clothes so I spent most of the day rearranging my room and organizing our clothes, shoes, and bags. After fixing everything up, I was very pleased, I realized that we had so much stuff, especially shoes. I dozed off after cleaning up and it felt so nice to finally sleep in a tidy room and on a bed that had very clean sheets.
Last Friday, I watched Mutya ng NIP with some of my high school friends after an excruciating ChE 123 exam. When I entered the building, it felt rather unusual , I expected a lot of people to be running about and preparing and stuff. But instead, it was quiet, as if it was just an ordinary day. When I went into the room of the program, I was a bit surprised because it was very...should I say "intimate"? It was a very small scale version of Ms. Engg. There were only five contestants from the different laboratories, and their preparation was really....hmmm...humble compared to that of engineering orgs. Oh well, what can I expect, their population was very small compared to our college and the event only involved one department. Anyway, I just enjoyed the show. The question and answer portion was very entertaining, the judges were asking very absurd questions like "Bakit mabuti ang may buhok sa kilikili?" and "Ano gagawin mo kapag meron ka at nag-cause ito ng matinding pamumuo ng dugo o blood clot?". The contestants were so witty and funny, especially pocahontas who, when asked what she/he would do as a princess in case a tsunami hit her kingdom answered, "Kasi naman, pag may tsunami ay wala ka na talagang magagawa, kaya ako, tatakbo na lang ako!" with matching actions pa!. Though she/he was the most unfortunate-looking among the contestants, her charm, wit and promiscuity won her/him the title.
After the program we went to katips to have dinner. We were supposed to eat in an Asian resto but it was closing when we arrived, so we just settled for Shakey's. I was really disappointed coz I realized that the resto we passed on was Tajma, the one featured in F and it supposedly had a moroccan smoke, something like a cigarette but actually wasn't. I think was called huka or something that sounded like that. Anyway, we had a great time like we always do whenever we go out, reminiscing, talking about the latest in each other's lives and laughing our hearts out.
I was supposed to hitch a ride home with my friend. But we finished at around a little past midnight, so I just decided to sleep at her house coz it was her parents who picked her up, not the driver, and it would be dyahe to ask them to bring me home that late. We stayed up until three just talking about...stuff, hehe. They dropped me off at my house the next morning.
Hmmm... I don't have a profound ending sentence so...wala lang, yun lang.
Friday, January 28, 2005
survey survey
THREE NAMES YOU GO BY
1. Maits
2. Maity Maits
3. Teng
THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD
1. dimple_14
2. migraine_gurl
3. mango
THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF
1. disiplina sa sarili
2. not being afraid to go places kahit na mag-isa
3. my non-bopek voice
THREE THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF
1. my inability to take big risks
2. my pimples!
3. my lack of money, hehe
THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU
1. ipis
2. multo
3. losing loved ones
THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS
1. food
2. pera
3. a book to help me sleep
THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW
1. t shirt ng bro ko
2. shorts ng bro ko
3. glasses
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS OR MUSICAL ARTISTS (at the moment)
1. coldplay
2. sugarfree
3. destiny's child
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS (at the moment)
1. the scientist
2. ano ba yun, yung kay pharell, yung puro percussion, hey mister ba yun o she's sexy
3. don't dream it's over, orig version
THREE NEW THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS
1. travel alone at malayo
2. get a part time job
3. mag-diet ng tunay
THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP
1. yung tipong you can really count on each other whenever, wherever
2. lots of laughs
3. no secrets, no lies
TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE (in no particular order)
1. maaga ako magising
2. i love my course
3. i'm a romantic
THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX (or same) THAT APPEAL TO YOU
1. height
2. shoulders
3. lips
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES
1. watching TV
2. strolling
3. reading
THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW
1. travel papunta sa kung saan mang malayo
2. eat, gutom ako e
3. just friggin sleep!
THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING
1. chemical engineer (sana lang)
2. professional bum
3. taong grasa
THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION
1. paris!!!
2. Sa province namin sa misamis
3. Cebu
THREE KID'S NAMES:
1. alexandra
2. margarita (para long version ng maita)
3. Dominique
THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE
1. travel as much I can (afford)
2. fall in love
3. rule the world
THREE WAYS I AM STEREOTYPICALLY A GIRL
1. when I have time, my kikay regimen is really complicated
2. I love fixing my hair
3. Dressing up or shopping (kahit window lang) lifts me up
THREE WAYS I AM STEREOTYPICALLY A BOY
1. Mejo bossy ako sa bahay
2. hindi ko palagi kelangan ng kasama pag may gusto akong puntahan
3. Barubal ako manamit sa bahay
THREE CELEB CRUSHES
1. josh hartnett!
2. gael garcia
3. eric bana, pero sa troy lang
1. Maits
2. Maity Maits
3. Teng
THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD
1. dimple_14
2. migraine_gurl
3. mango
THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF
1. disiplina sa sarili
2. not being afraid to go places kahit na mag-isa
3. my non-bopek voice
THREE THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF
1. my inability to take big risks
2. my pimples!
3. my lack of money, hehe
THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU
1. ipis
2. multo
3. losing loved ones
THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS
1. food
2. pera
3. a book to help me sleep
THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW
1. t shirt ng bro ko
2. shorts ng bro ko
3. glasses
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS OR MUSICAL ARTISTS (at the moment)
1. coldplay
2. sugarfree
3. destiny's child
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS (at the moment)
1. the scientist
2. ano ba yun, yung kay pharell, yung puro percussion, hey mister ba yun o she's sexy
3. don't dream it's over, orig version
THREE NEW THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS
1. travel alone at malayo
2. get a part time job
3. mag-diet ng tunay
THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP
1. yung tipong you can really count on each other whenever, wherever
2. lots of laughs
3. no secrets, no lies
TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE (in no particular order)
1. maaga ako magising
2. i love my course
3. i'm a romantic
THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX (or same) THAT APPEAL TO YOU
1. height
2. shoulders
3. lips
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES
1. watching TV
2. strolling
3. reading
THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW
1. travel papunta sa kung saan mang malayo
2. eat, gutom ako e
3. just friggin sleep!
THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING
1. chemical engineer (sana lang)
2. professional bum
3. taong grasa
THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION
1. paris!!!
2. Sa province namin sa misamis
3. Cebu
THREE KID'S NAMES:
1. alexandra
2. margarita (para long version ng maita)
3. Dominique
THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE
1. travel as much I can (afford)
2. fall in love
3. rule the world
THREE WAYS I AM STEREOTYPICALLY A GIRL
1. when I have time, my kikay regimen is really complicated
2. I love fixing my hair
3. Dressing up or shopping (kahit window lang) lifts me up
THREE WAYS I AM STEREOTYPICALLY A BOY
1. Mejo bossy ako sa bahay
2. hindi ko palagi kelangan ng kasama pag may gusto akong puntahan
3. Barubal ako manamit sa bahay
THREE CELEB CRUSHES
1. josh hartnett!
2. gael garcia
3. eric bana, pero sa troy lang
Thursday, January 27, 2005
bangag
Hanlufet, ngayon pa talaga ako inatake ng migraine with matching sore throat. Kahapon nabinat ako kaya hindi ako nakaaral ng maayos para sa exam kaninang umaga. Me insomnia rin ata ako lately e, pag matutulog na ako feeling ko antok na antok na ako pero bumibilang ako ng oras bago makatulog tapos yung tulog ko yung tipong parang half-awake pa rin, ang panget, at ang OA sa aga ko pa magising. Kanina ngangumaaga nagising ako ng 4, que horror! Pumasok na lang ako ng maaga para mag-aral. Kanina rin maaga akong umuwi at natulog ako agad kasi parang mabibiyak na ang ulo ko. At eto ako ngayon, bangag pa rin. Haay, kelangan pa mag-aral para sa exam bukas, banas talaga.
Saturday, January 15, 2005
TV
Wow, this is my third time to make a post today, though yung dalawa just came from online quizzes. I watched Indecent Proposal earlier and honestly, I was a bit disappointed coz it was not as indecent as I expected, hehe. Pinaunahan pa kasi ako ni ate e, sabi niya "Bold yan." So I waited for something really obscene to happen. Pero to my utter dismay, it just merely had some love scenes that weren't that scandalous and could have been better. Hehe, parang ang manyak tuloy ng tunog ko noh? Well, it's not my fault that it had such a suggestive title. I watched pa Passion of Mind, it had a very interesting and creepy plot. Demi had a rare case of MPD wherein you'll feel you're living two lives, parang when she sleeps in her other life, she wakes up in another entirely different but seems equally real life. So, in effect, it's as if she's awake 24/7. Astig nga e, what if wala kang gustong i-give-up na version ng buhay mo, baka masira na utak mo nun. Hindi ko lang siya natapos kasi may hinihintay ako kaya hindi ko nalaman kung alin yung totoo.
Anyway, enough of Demi Moore. After a few weeks of waiting in vain for a new episode of Gilmore Girls, sa wakas, hindi na replay yung kanina. It was partly about journalism, kaya nga na-inspire ako mag-update, though this a farcry from Rory's well thought of articles. Ayun, tapos back to work na, kelangan na ituloy ang paper na nakkaatamad talagang gawin.
Anyway, enough of Demi Moore. After a few weeks of waiting in vain for a new episode of Gilmore Girls, sa wakas, hindi na replay yung kanina. It was partly about journalism, kaya nga na-inspire ako mag-update, though this a farcry from Rory's well thought of articles. Ayun, tapos back to work na, kelangan na ituloy ang paper na nakkaatamad talagang gawin.
Sige na nga...
|
Your Element Is Air |
 You dislike conflict, and you've been able to rise above the angst of the world. And when things don't go your way, you know they'll blow over quickly. Easygoing, you tend to find joy from the simple things in life. You roll with the punches, and as a result, your life is light and cheerful. You find it easy to adapt to most situations, and you're an open person. With you, what you see is what you get... and people love that! |
|
1985 by Bowling for Soup |
"Where's the mini-skirt made of snakeskin? And who's the other guy that's singing in Van Halen? When did reality become T.V.? What ever happened to sitcoms, game shows?" You took the bitter with the sweet in 2004 - and kept laughing. |
Friday, January 14, 2005
Suntok sa Buwan
Kakaiba, bigla akong na-depress kanina. Bakit tuwing Friday night ang lungkot ng hangin kapag naglalakad ako pauwi. Hindi ko talaga maintindihan, pero nalulungkot talaga ako. Well it's really not just a feeling of sadness, but more like emptiness. Sabi nung teacher namin sa hum kanina, the more knowledge you attain, the more sorrowful you become, ibig sabihin ba tumalino ako? Hehe, asa pa. Pero medyo naniniwala din ako dun, na ignorance is bliss. Hay, siguro kung mabaliw ka dahil sa sobrang saya, nirvana talaga yun. Alam mo yun, dahil baliw ka, masaya ka na palagi, you won't ever give a damn anymore about the things that happen outside your crazy little world. Here I go again, babbling on and on about my twisted ideas, nahahawa na ata ko dun sa teacher ko e, ang daldal niya kasi, pero unlike me, his ideas sound so philosophically intense while mine just seem plain stupid. What to do, what to do... Actually madami, hindi ko pa nga natatapos basahin yung binabasa kong nobela, kasi lagi na lang akong late umuwi at computer kaagad ang kaharap ko, tulad ngayon. Nakakainis nga e, maganda yung libro,pero the bulb of the reading lamp that I'm using got busted, ang hirap tuloy magbasa, ang liit kasi ng font.
Tatapusin ko na lang ang entry na ito sa pamamagitan ng lyrics ng suntok sa buwan, para me malagay ako sa title, wala na naman kasing sense pinagsusulat ko e. Pero ang ganda kasi ng lyrics, kanina ko lang nagets...
Hindi mo ba alam
Damdamin ko'y pinagtakpan
Makasama ka'y suntok sa buwan
'Di mo nga alam
Mundo mo nga'y iyong tignan
Kung ganyan, walang pupuntahan
Hindi ko 'to gusto
Pero 'wag kang lalayo
Itanong mo sa akin
At tatanungin ko rin
Kung ika'y aamin
Lahat ay gagawin
'Di mo napapansin
Kailangan mo akong dinggin
'Di habang buhay ika'y aantayin
Ito'y aking hiling
At sana naman ay tanggapin
Ng puso ko'y 'di nabibitin
Haaay...
Tatapusin ko na lang ang entry na ito sa pamamagitan ng lyrics ng suntok sa buwan, para me malagay ako sa title, wala na naman kasing sense pinagsusulat ko e. Pero ang ganda kasi ng lyrics, kanina ko lang nagets...
Hindi mo ba alam
Damdamin ko'y pinagtakpan
Makasama ka'y suntok sa buwan
'Di mo nga alam
Mundo mo nga'y iyong tignan
Kung ganyan, walang pupuntahan
Hindi ko 'to gusto
Pero 'wag kang lalayo
Itanong mo sa akin
At tatanungin ko rin
Kung ika'y aamin
Lahat ay gagawin
'Di mo napapansin
Kailangan mo akong dinggin
'Di habang buhay ika'y aantayin
Ito'y aking hiling
At sana naman ay tanggapin
Ng puso ko'y 'di nabibitin
Haaay...
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