Saturday, February 05, 2005

Wadahek

Wadahek. Naguguluhan na naman ang utak ko. Feeling ko ang dami kong gagawin pero hindi naman talaga. I'm stressing over nothing and thinking that I'm stressing over nothing stresses me even more.

Pero syempre kahit na feeling stressed ako, kanina, pagkagaling namin ng mga kaibigan ko sa cubao, natulog lang ako mula 2:30 to 6 at pagkagising ko ay nanood pa ako ng movie tuloy nood ng gilmore girls. Syet, procrastination sucks.

The movie I watched was fairly good. It was about what's really important in life, you know those kind of movies. It makes you feel really bad during the course of the show, bida has a very abundant life but some life turning event happens and he experiences the lowest point of his life. Then he meets someone who'll teach him life lessons which, in turn, will make him realize that it doesn't matter how much money he has but how much love he has gained in his life. Whatever. It's such a depressing shit. And I'm a real shithead for being affected. And made me realize how much of a masochist I truly am. I always say things that I really don't mean and know that I'll only get hurt by doing so. I'm always so hard on myself. Nakakainis, feeling ko kasi kapag meron kang nararamdaman na masama dapat lalo mo pang saktan ang sarili mo kasi in the end you'll feel better...or just plain numb. Para bang sugat na naimpeksyon na dapat mong putukin kahit masakit para lumabas lahat ng nana, pag wala nang nana, gagaling na daba? Hay, bwiset.

Ijo-jog ko na lang to. Nakakaadik magjog.

*Don't push too far, limitations scar*- Natalie Imbruglia