Monday, August 29, 2005

Biotechnology

I'm so friggin' distracted right now. I've been trying to summarize our reading in STS so that i could come up with a decent script for our video project. But I've been in front of the computer for about three hours now and I haven't even reached half of the article. This is so frustrating.

I tried to turn on the music hoping that it'll help me concentrate on understanding biotechnological developments in agriculture, but lo! As soon as the first note of "She will be loved" came on, my mind went into a total blank. I can't understand a single sentence on this stupid piece of paper on my lap. And I remembered that the reason that I don't listen to music when I study is because I become so immersed in the rhythm and the words in each stanza and my mind floats away into whatever my imagination makes of the poetry that is embedded in each song. Most of the time, I get depressed and fall into a trance and off I go into an oblivion of longing... Wishing... Wanting all my problems to fade away. I'm beginning to feel very helpless. Why do they all have to come all at once? Can I request fate to reschedule them for the next month or at least next week maybe? Just not now, not tomorrow...